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Chapter 34

"You can rest up in here, since Glenn and you were in together it might be good if Glenn can have Max for comfort." Rick tells me comfortingly.

"Thanks." I say as Rick helps me to lay comfortably down on the bottom bunk.

"You try and have a nap, unless you wanna grab some dinner?" Rick says.

"Nah it's all good, i'm gonna sleep." I tell him as i turn to face the wall.

I hear Rick start to leave.

"Wait!" I shout as I turn and sit up.

Rick walks over to me and I wrap my arms around him firmly.

"Thank you for helping me."

He finally get a grip on what is happening and embraces me in return.

His arms are warm and I bury my face in the crook of his neck.

Rick slowly breaks the hug and as he moves away from me he turns his head and kisses me quickly and gently on the lips.

"It's okay." He mutters and quickly leaves.

I hold my lip in shock and turn to the wall once again.

Glenn's P.O.V~

I stand at the top of the stairs as Rick helps Ruby out of the crowd.

Lucky bastard.

Her not remembering me... not remembering us... it hurts.

"So she doesn't remember you?" Maggie's voice chimes from behind me.

I turn to see her biting her lip in an attempt at looking hot and she sidles up to me, placing her hands on my chest and looking me in the eye.

"What are you doing Maggie?" I ask in frustration.

"Nothing, but, now that she's over you can't things be restored to their original way, I miss you." She leans in and tries to kiss me.

"Back off Maggie." I tell her and walk over to Rick's cell.

As I get to the door I see something that causes my head to spin and warm bile to pool at the back of my throat.

Ruby and Rick are engulfed in each others arms, her lips are pressed against his neck and her eyes are closed and she looks... happy.

They pull away from each other a little bit, and then Rick leans in and kisses her.

He fucking kisses her.

HE KISSED RUBY,

THE LOVE OF MY LIFE,

THE MOTHER OF MY UNBORN CHILD.

The world spins around me and I can't focus.

I feel myself being guided, but I don't know where to. And I feel the chair underneath me, but I don't know if I sat down.

"Glenn are you alright?" A voice asks me.

I don't answer though, I don't care enough to.

The only person I want to talk to is Ruby.

"Glenn? Glenn snap out of it, come on Glenn." The voice sounds like it's underwater.

And then I feel the drowning sensation for myself.

I think about what has happened and my lungs fill with water.

I cough violently to get it to go away.

But everything is going under now.

The water rises, it's spilling out my mouth and pooling around my ankles.

In seconds my feet are fully submerged.

My shins and knees, thighs and torso.

Then my head.

I hold my breath an listen to the distorted voices around me.

"Glenn?!"

"What's going on buddy?"

"Are you okay?"

But I don't answer, I don't care.

If they aren't her, they're not worth it.

The spots start slowly, black holes encasing my vision.

They get faster and suddenly all my vision is gone.

And I can't hear anymore.

And I can't move.

All I can do is think.

And all I can think about is her.

Her smile. Her hair. Her nose freckles. Her eyes. Her ears. Her lips. Her laugh. Her cry. Her everything.

And I don't know how to deal.