Little Lynch

Sleepless Nights

"Hey, how are you doing?" Rydel asked as she walked into the waiting room, where Ross, Riker, and I were waiting.

"I'm fine, the kids are fine, Vanni's fine, we're doing awesome!" Riker replied.

"That's great!" Mom said. Everyone was smiling, except for me. I was almost asleep. I closed my eyes and felt Ross stand up. We walked down a hall and I heard the door open. Everyone sounded excited and there were lots of 'they're so cute!'s and 'what are their names?'s.

"Violet Eloise Lynch and Spencer Alexander Lynch," Riker replied, the last thing I heard before I fell asleep.

I woke up at around midnight, in Rydel's and my room. Rydel was on her bed, on her phone.

"Turn off your phone, it's too bright," I groaned.

"Well close your eyes!" she replied, not moving her eyes from the screen.

I sighed. "What are you doing, anyways?"

"I'm on Instagram, what else would I be doing?" she laughed, throwing a pillow at me.

"Ouch," I mumbled, turning over and attempting to fall asleep. Who knew when the next time I would be able to sleep without interruptions of babies crying would be? Rydel was laughing at something, I assume comments.

"Oh my God!" I snapped. "Shut up!"

"Ooo, someone's in a bad mood!" Rydel said, laughing. "Little sass master."

"Ugh!" I stood up and walked out of my room, taking my pillow and blankie with me to set up in the hall. I slept on the hard floor for the rest of the night.

***next morning***

"Ouch," I mumbled as I sat up. My back and neck were killing me, thanks to sleeping on the floor all night. Everyone seemed to be up already so I stood up and walked to the kitchen.

"Sleep good?" Ross asked, laughing.

I sent him a death glare as I prepared some waffles for myself. "It's not my fault, Rydel was the one who wouldn't shut up," I explained.

"Yeah, and you're the one who took things too far," Rocky replied.

"And I didn't make you sleep on the floor, it was your choice," Rydel told me.

"Guys, stop," Ryland told them. "This is why she was upset that there was going to be a new baby and can't you see she's upset now? I don't get it, is it fun to push her around? Does it make you happy?" 

I held back tears, of both sadness and happiness, grateful I could always count on Ryland. I ran to Ryland's room, knowing Rydel would kick me out of ours. Ryland followed me.

"Honey, I know you're upset. Do you want to talk about it?" Ryland asked, sitting next to me and pulling me close. I shook my head. I felt my heart begin to beat faster and my breathing get out of control.

"Hey," Ryland said, hugging me tight.

"Let go of me!" I screamed as I stood up, my hands shaking. I couldn't breathe. I felt like I was dying.

"Sit down." Ryland took my hands and sat me down on the bed. "Breathe, just focus on breathing, okay?" I closed my eyes and nodded, tears still spilling. I counted inside my head, in 1, 2, 3, out 1, 2, 3. "Shh, calm down."

I sobbed into his chest, wanting everything to just stop. I didn't want anyone downstairs, I didn't want two babies at the hospital, I didn't want anything. I just wanted to sit with Ryland in the basement, playing video games with Mom and Dad upstairs making lunch. No famous siblings, no tours, no girlfriends, none of that. As I finally began to breathe normally and get that enormous weight off my chest, I realised everyone probably heard me. And that I was wasting Ryland's time that he could be eating with or doing something he actually would want to do.

"I'm sorry," I whispered.

"For what?" Ryland asked.

"For, I don't know, being here. I know you wanted me to live with Mom and Dad and now I got you into a fight with your siblings and took away your time. I'm sorry for just... always being in the way."

"Who ever told you that? You aren't in the way, okay? I don't know what on earth I would do without you. You mean so much to me. Who would I hang out with during the shows? Who would I play video games with? Who would I have fun with?"

"The band," I replied. "You can hang out with the band and when they're preforming, get some time to yourself for once. You can play video games with the boys and have fun with anyone but me. You never have fun with me. This isn't fun."

"I never said this was fun. I wish you never had to experience things like this ever again. I wish you were a happy little girl again. If I could change it, I would. And I know I can change it, I just don't know how. That's where you come in. I'll do whatever you want if it means we get to spend time together and it makes you happy. Because I love you and I couldn't ask for a better baby sister."

"Thanks, RyRy. I love you too."

A/N

Woohoo! Baby Alexander is doing awesome and we're just chillin' in mine and my sister and brother's room. He's like the size of my thumb. Not literally but gosh, he's small. And how bout that, guys? Little Rosannah is finally sort of opening up to someone. So, we're getting somewhere! Thanks for reading and remember to comment any ideas bc I'm kinda running low...

~Zee