Tainted Redemption

Chapter ten

Song for the chapter: Nicki Minaj - Pills and Potions

*a.n/ I alternate stuff when it comes to write about Liv being able to work as a part time intern ( which I dont think exists oops :p ) at her young age and stuff that has to do with her college bc it fits the story better. Thought I'd let you know if you haven't noticed or were questioning yourself why I would do such thing. Besides of this being a fanfic the other reason was that. Happy reading, if you enjoy vote please. xx

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Olivia's POV

It almost happened again. Losing someone close to me because they tried to protect me. Only now it's much worse. Now I had the uncertainty of it happening any dragging minute but still hold on faith.

The hospital's hall is making me nauseous, I can't stop pacing and shaking.

I was waiting for any information on his health with baited breath.

I told him not to do this. Has he forgotten how bad I was feeling after what happened with Alice?

I'm not mad at him, I can't even resent him. I'm scared of losing him. I'm scared that the bullet hit his heart.

A sharp pang shot through my chest when I know it had because I saw where the wound was. It's almost a hopeless case but I grasp on the treacherous denial. He will be alright.

Staring to my feet, my hands wipe frantically on my never ending tears and small heaves and sobs rake my chest as I'm pacing back and forth.

I'm again in this situation. If something drastic and fatal happens I will be the one not to survive this again.

Everything was blurry and unclear to how I brought him here after yelling at Tyler, who was gobsmacked at what happened, to call an ambulance.

My hands were coated with crimson blood again, I tried to stop the oozing wound just enough of time until Zayn was rushed in the ambulance and then into ER where he is being operated.

He really went to these lengths only to protect me.

He put himself before a flying bullet that was meant to hit me, knowing it could kill him but didn't care just because of me.

I can't fathom it even if it happened before my eyes... Or where he knew someone was trying to harm me.

Why are the doctors taking so long?

The loud sobs wrenching from my throat and trembling my lips emitted and echo because of how wrong and selfish I was being before once the reminder of how today went comes back and circles me. This all happened because of my hurt feelings and broken heart as I blamed it all on him, when he isn't culpable. And as of now I'm getting the images of how I thought I heard his voice and the next second he was shot right in front of my eyes. It had made everything around me spin and my heart had literally stopped beating. I felt like I was seeing the scene happening before me again, while I had screamed for him and tried to keep him awake, only to have him faint on my arms... I deserved to experience it over again with flashbacks because I was too absored with other things rather than my safety and trying to rationally react, not on my sensitive emotions.

That's why he called me so many times today. There was a split second where I wanted to answer him when I was in the bakery but Tyler distracted me and I quickly shook the weird feeling in me, deciding it was best to ignore his calls.

How utterly wrong I was for doing such thing.

I feel guilt, remorse in such excruciating ways. Most of all, I felt my heart falling to pieces because I still care... I love him. I always will, it doesn't matter if I try to steer clear from my love for him by suppressing it. It would only hit me back full force...