Tainted Redemption

Chapter thirty-one

Song for the chapter: Katy Perry - The one that got away

*You might not like some parts of the book from the previous and coming chaps, that's okay, this is the last time I'm defending my work. Vote, comment please. xx

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While I get ready by dressing up to confront Zayn, I was thinking about everything again.

I was slightly cautious and curious, so I had looked at my stomach before the mirror to see any changes yet... But nothing was visible.

We did it once...A time of him releasing inside me was enough to impregnate me.

I wasn't as sensitive or panicky about this anymore. Slowly I was settling it down my head that I was going to have responsibility over someone else than only myself, until recently Zayn as well, though Zayn is a grown up person and didn't need guidance.

I found myself rubbing tender circles with my hand over my tummy, I smiled sadly to myself.

"Liv," mum said when she got in my room, "Are you feeling better?" she inquisitively asked, taking in my attire that consisted of a black ripped skinny jeans and a plain black sweater that was wide. Even though I wasn't showing, I felt bloated and fat.

"No...I'll never be." I retort, why should I lie? I had other concerns to bother for.

She grows sad, "I've tried to make your father see, but he lost his way of thinking with this issue. I'm afraid it will take some time until he recognizes his wrongs." mum reassured me, she sits on my bed while I combed my hair swiftly, slightly pacing around my room, "He's prohibited to visit you, but I can't forever hold him away, he's your father." she mumbles.

"You have hope that he'll change. I'm telling you, I will not believe him ever again." I state, making her sigh.

The doorbell rings, "I'll take it since I'm going out." I inform mum, she nods.

Skirting through the stairs, I got hastily to the front door, opening it quickly.

I try to close it on his face but his boot prevents it.

"What do you want?" I flatly question.

His blue eyes are tender, he almost resembled the father I once knew, "I'm still on the case to find the assassin. I think I know where to dig through to find more, but the information I'll need I get only if I continue to meddle with gangs." he responds calmly.

"Why should I trust you?"

"Because I've got what I wanted."

My face hardens, but I compose myself, "And where do I fit in here?" I lazily ask.

"There's this meeting they have, and I need your help to get in."

I scoff, "Why? To cause damage again. I won't go anywhere with you."

"You did what I asked, I'm going to keep my word." he counters, "He's going to be there too..." he told me.

"So? You teared us apart remember?" I bit back, crossing my arms.

He sighs, "I have to get in there to prevent some drug lords, it might get ugly for him too." he hints.

He's blackmailing me with this information again. He knows Zayn's safety for me comes first, but he refuses to see our love. Just to get what he wants he'll force me to see Zayn in this abrupt way when I needed to have a one by one with him.

"Why are you doing this? What you did to me wasn't enough?" I barely question.

He gritted his jaw, "I never wanted you to see that side of me, but you made me do things I'm not proud of."