Tainted Redemption

Chapter sixty-three

Olivia's POV

I stood there to some more, just enjoying to hold him, trace his neck with my hands. Then I look down to Zamir and Zamin, who were calmly and curiously staring at me, already wiggling so I would hold them and give them the attention they wanted, even if they're only three months old.

My cute little sons. I would've taken care of them and disregard Zayn for a while since I missed being beside them and it felt a long time when it had been barely an afternoon, but I focus on Zayn since I was doing that often to him, putting him next to the needs of our babies. And right now he need my support, I've missed spending time with him as we used to dearly.

"Why are you smelling weird?" I muttered at Zayn, distastefully glaring at him, he has not once looked away from me ever since he's out of her office. "It's a woman's perfume..." I clarify, crossing my arms.

"She hugged me goodbye." He replied, I felt my expression turn flat. "You're still jealous over Beatrix?"

"Can you not say her name like that? Why do you mention her so much?" I retort hotly, "actually, let's talk about something else."

He smirked, being just as irresistible as the first time he gave me these kind of looks.

"My eyes only see you..." He murmured, his gaze roaming my face.

"But she doesn't care about that." I chastise him, then we walk side by side outside.

"What is the reason for not liking her?" His eyes got big as his expression is questioning me.

"I don't like the way she looks at you." I say swiftly with my eyebrows up.

"I don't see it." He shrugged, he calmly tries to understand my slight  jealousy. He knows I envied the times they spent alone where they got to speak about his experiences, he told me them too but I was allowed to be a little jealous.

....

While we're driving home, we decide to go out for dinner tonight, so I called mum to stay over and watch after our kids.

Then I went to make myself ready, before getting out with Zayn whom hadn't moved away from the spot in the car. I tried my best to keep my styling under twenty minutes, this was the first time we were going out ever since the twins were there.

"You okay, baby?" I asked once I sit back in the passenger seat, he had been looking thoughtfully, and a little melancholy as well. I wanted to show him I wasn't going to neglect him always, he never complains though. He knew what comes with the responsibility of parenthood, especially that from a mother.

He blinked up to me, "Yeah, yeah."

I give him a disbelieving look.

"How's Claire?" He asked, pulling out of the garage.

"She's okay, couldn't wait to play with our babies." I respond, it sounds weird to say babies, but our children were all still too young to be considered anything else.

Friends and what used to be Zayn's mob mates come visit us, we've been keeping our business on the low, and our lives have turned to become more normal than we could have ever imagined...

....

We're walking out of the cinema, hand in hand, just enjoying the summer breeze.

"-and it's like a great place we could spend the weekend with the kids." I find myself trail off once I noticed how quiet he's become in these five minutes of us walking.

I knew he was again lost in his head for many memories and he's maybe getting to the point where he can lastly say everything is where it should be.