The Flipsyde

Tears

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I sat under the bridge- waiting as promised. 

I was pretty excited about having to meet Isa everyday.. Her own stipulation made me feel somewhat more confident about myself.. I wasn't the only one interested in talking to the other- she did want to talk to me again.. And again.. And again.. 

And maybe something more?

Also, that meant that I'd get plenty of time to spend with her. Plenty of time to have fun with her. Plenty of times to get back at that annoying little giggle. That little giggle which would drive me insane, while at the same time be so adorable, I couldn't help but want to see it more..

It was still pretty hard to believe- the fact that she beat me yesterday. The condition I had to fulfill wasn't any easier.. This was pretty much abandoning earning for my family.. As a result I had come up with a way to make it work. Till the next flipsyde, she'd give me a certain amount of cash daily- just enough to dispel any suspicion as to my whereabouts from my family.. I would return this when she was on the poor side.. I knew it was a long shot.. But I still had hope she'd agree..

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I was super happy! It was awesome of her to do this! Now my family wouldn't be in the back of my mind every time I had to spend time with her!

Despite my expecting the worst, she had actually agreed to lend me the money..

I stretched my arms out and hugged her tightly. Halfway through the hug, I just realized what I'd done.

I quickly released her from the hug. As I released her, I could swear I saw a mild blush on her cheeks. Did I imagine that?

I was happy to see that.. It had made my day.. But the smile on my face would not last for long.. No, it was not about anything she had done next. 

When I'd hugged her, I had unknowingly moved up the right sleeve of her t-shirt.

My heartbeat slowed as I looked at the area of her arm exposed. My breathing stopped and all my senses altered to allow me to focus on it  .. There was a scar.. Not a very old one either.. Alex.

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As I ran away, tears streamed down my face. Alex. The name was cut into her arm. That wasn't the scar of the name of a brother or a friend.. It was the scar a girl makes for a lover.. 

I had known it wouldn't work. This was bound to happen. I wasn't good enough for her.. But somewhere deep down, I'd had a small glimmer of hope.. That was gone now. A small light guiding my actions- extinguished. Leaving me stranded in the dark forest of heartbreak.

I wasn't sure what to do. The time we had spent- even though only two days, felt like months.. The one who I'd trusted so deeply- it felt horrible to know I'd lost her.. Or even worse- the fact that she- even in the future, may never reciprocate my feelings.

The times we spent.. Her actually wanting to meet me everyday till the flipsyde.. Did it really mean nothing? Or was she just playing the two of us.. Both me and whoever this Alex was..?

My heart ached for answers.. But it wasn't ready to ask the questions..

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As I sat on my bed weeping, I heard some footsteps.

"I've got good news! Christopher-" my mom started, walking into the room before changing the sentence- finishing it as "doesn't matter right now. I'll come later"

Mom understood my pain. I knew it. One glance and she probably knew exactly what happened.

I know I should have gone and told my mom not to worry.. But I just couldn't.. Even the good news about Christopher didn't seem to matter right now..

I wanted to expel my sadness into the world with one loud scream, but my vocal chords wouldn't work. My tears had run dry as well. The window which would usually provide me with so many wonderful sights, now only seemed to taunt me with a view of the wall. The thirty foot wall that divided the two sides of the society. Yet, that wall was nothing compared to the wall that divided me and Isa.

I curled up into a ball on my bed. Feeling the warmth of my own body.. The one warmth in the world that was genuine.. The one warmth that would never turn against me..

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I'm not even sure what to say.. I'm sure you guys hate me by now.. Because if you don't, I hate you for not hating me..

I promise it'll get better soon :)