The Flipsyde

Understanding

Hey guys :) one more chapter! The last chapter ended with 0 knives to my throat so I'm hoping to move one step further up the ladder :P

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I woke up feeling particularly good. But that didn't last long. As I remembered the events of the past day, the happiness dissipated and I slowly started to sink further and further into depression.

Having a crush is the best thing ever.. When you have a crush, you have a reason to get up every morning. A reason to fix your life.. And the fact that you can spend time with that person? It's the best feeling ever.

However, one day if you ever wake up and the person is gone from your life, it starts to break you. One by one all the memories from the past, all the feelings you have at present, and all the plans you had for the future start to collapse onto you- trapping you in an inescapable web of despair. That's how I felt right now.. Trapped..

I walked out of my room. It had been long enough since my mom had seen me upset and I had to make sure she wasn't worrying too much.

As soon as mom saw me, she told me to go get some groceries. She figured the fresh air and the activity of the outside world would distract me from whatever was bothering me.

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As I turned the corner onto the lane with the grocery store, I stopped in shock at what I saw. Or rather, who I saw. Was it? It was Isa!

She was running from house to house- peeping through the windows. After spending some time on each window, she finally moved on to the next window.

It was almost as if she was looking for something.. But what could it be??

And then she saw me. She opened her mouth to say something, and then stopped. Her gaze lowered.

And then I realized.. She was there for me..

But she shouldn't be out here like this.. I ran up to her, grabbed her arm and pulled her to a small alley where we wouldn't be seen.. Even with her wearing poor clothes, sooner or later someone would notice that she didn't belong.

"Why are you here?" I asked

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I sat down. I was devastated.

Not by the fact that she loved Alex. But by the fact that she had held so much in.

I didn't know what to say.. It was all so much to take in. I felt bad that she didn't tell me about him before,  but I didn't think it was fair to have expected her to either.. 

She slumped against the wall.

I put my arm around her. "Listen to me.. It's not your fault.." I started. I wasn't good with helping people through tough times, so I just decided to follow my instincts. "He wouldn't have wanted you to feel upset about it."

"That's what he would have said." She replied, with a sniffle.

This was no place for her to be.. The pain of losing someone was bad enough.. If she had to get through this, it had to be in the warmth of her house, alongside her family..

"Come on.. Let's get you home." I said.

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After we climbed into the window, I made her sit down on her bed.

Obviously she could have just walked into her house, but I didn't want to leave her alone- being in the emotional state she was.

Telling her to get some rest, I turned around to get going. She needed some alone time. Me being there would just aggravate her and confuse her more.. She didn't need to have to worry about my feelings as well..

But I was pulled back by a hand on my wrist. "Will I see you again?" She asked weakly.

"Every day" I replied - with a weak smile.

A smile started to creep onto Isa's face. She let go of my wrist and nodded.

I turned around and started to run towards the window.. I leapt out- soaring a few feet before doing a double back flip, getting into the wrong position, belly flopping onto the ground and breaking a few bones.

No? Damn I thought I had you guys!!

As I climbed down the tree, I had to ask myself a few questions.. 

Would I come back to meet her again?

Yes

Could I get over her?

Probably not

Would I let her know that I couldn't?

Definitely no

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