YouTube Love

Chapter 38

Mark burst through his bedroom door, never breaking the contact of his lips on mine. He roughly pushed me down onto his bed and then immediately hovered over me. My entire body was shaking as his lips made contact with mine again. In between kisses, I could hear him whisper little nothings. I could feel his hand sneak under my shirt and I gasped as I felt his fingers grazing my sides. My body was now shaking uncontrollably.

"What do you think you're doing?" a voice asked in my head.
"I don't really know..." I replied.
"You should probably tell him."
"What? That I'm a virgin? No thanks."
"You gotta."

Mark's hands had now moved farther up my body. His kisses had moved down to my neck.
"Tell him."
"I can't.'
"Tell him."
"No!"

Just as Mark was about to take my shirt off, I screamed out; "WAIT!". Mark shot up and looked at my with concern. "J-Jess...what's wrong?" he asked. I just stared at him, dumbfounded. How on earth was I supposed to do this? Just say it quick, like ripping off a fucking band-aid? I finally sat up and he moved off of me. I sat looking down at the floor and felt his hand on my back, I jumped; gasping. He wrapped his arms around me tightly. My body was still shaking. "Babe, what is wrong?" He asked my quietly. I mumbled my answer under my breath. "What?" he asked getting closer to me. I said it a bit louder, still mumbling. "Jess, you're gonna have to speak up. I can't hear yo-" "I've never had sex before!" I blurted out. His grip loosened as his arms started to drop. "Oh...ummm..." I sighed. "Mark, I'm sorry, I should've told you; but I-" he cut me off; pressing his lips to mine for a soft kiss. He held me close to him. "So you're a-" "Yup."

We both sat there in silence, his arms still wrapped around me. I just sighed and he let go of me, stood up and then crouched down in front of me. I was looking down and his finger lifted up my chin, I looked him deep in his brown eyes. He just smiled at me. "I'll be honest, I don't really know what to do now." I giggled. "There's that beautiful smile I love." He told me with a smile himself. He then stood up and took my hands. We walked back downstairs to join the rest of his family.