Murdering Soulfinder (Finding Sky Fanfiction)

Chapter 19- The Plan

Author's Note: There is a slighly small POV change in the middle of the chapter, it will say there is a POV change and who it will be like normal. I just want to explain this specific POV change as it is in a POV of character that has never been done in this story. When I wrote this story, there were two characters that were based on two people in real life that I knew. They both wanted their character to have a 'romantic moment' with their Soulfinder. One of the characters has already had their 'moment', and that is Cleo. The other character is Elana, who will have her 'moment' in this chapter. It is a weird little scene but there was no other place in the story I could fit her 'moment' in and make it flow. It still doesn't exactly flow here but hey, I had to please her! I hope I have anyway. So here is the next chapter...

Chapter 19

Jace's POV

I stayed on my knees for a few minutes after Zhalia left and Saul spoke to me. The rest of the family were scattered around speaking quietly together or crying. I looked in the distance. I spotted a tree. The same tree that we had our first kiss against. Sad that I remember but I couldn't help it, especially at a time like this where I couldn't just kiss it better...

The walk back to Zhalia's house was unbearable. I shoved my hands in my pockets. They shook so vigorously that I didn't have the control to stop them. I feel like I can't breathe, the air getting stuck in my throat and not going down to my lungs.

Zhalia, I'm sorry! I telepathically tried to call out to her even though I knew it won't reach her because of Scott. I trailed behind the rest of Zhalia's family, staring at the ground. I felt so lost. Like a lost puppy looking for his owner that he loves so much. My eyes were blurry because of the tears but I still looked up. I saw Saul walking with Karla crying in his arms and Saul trying to give her reassuring comments without totally flipping himself. I looked over to Sky who was also crying but in Zed's arms.

"It's all my fault! If I wasn't taken then she wouldn't be with them!" she said weeping.

"It's not your fault! You know it's not your fault!" Zed said, his voice was slightly braking. I didn't know if it was due to his soulfinder crying or the fact that his twin sister, who I knew he loved, was taken by my shitty family. Probably both.

"It is my fault! It is!" Sky cried even harder at her own words.

"No! It isn't; if it's anyone's fault, it's mine!" I spoke up. "I dragged every single one of you and Zhalia into this mess. If it wasn't for me, you wouldn't be in this bloody mess; god dammit, Zhalia wouldn't even be with my family about to get fucking tortured because of me!" My voice rose in frustration. I don't remember getting my hands out of my pockets. I closed my eyes and tried to calm down by trying to take deep breaths as tiny sparks flew out in all different directions from my clenched wrists.

"Jace, it's going to be ok; you need to calm down!" Trace ordered.

"I can't bloody calm down so don't ask me to!" I shouted as a bolt zapped out of my hand but luckily it fell to the ground and sizzled out. However, that didn't stop me. "Try having my powers, having your soulfinder ripped away from you like that by your own family and all because it's your own fault! It's so damn hard!"

Before I could scream in anger and totally loose it, a sudden wave of calmness washed over me. "You need to calm down, Jace. We won't be able to find her if you're like this!" Diamond said calmly. I nodded, breathing heavily.

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Slow... Everything was moving slowly and my senses couldn't focus. Sounds became one, everything I saw was blurry. I stopped walking after I couldn't stop myself from swaying. Leaning over, I put my hands on my knees as I tried to control my breathing. It grew out of control. I could feel myself sweating. Zhalia, oh god! What have I done?