A Little Too Much | Shawn Mendes (COMPLETED)

28 | The Sound of Silence

Allie's POV;

I barely sleep the night through, because the events that occurred today are still fresh in my mind. I can't get it out of my head, and I really wish I could. After tossing and turning for what feels like hours, I give up on sleep and decide to text Shawn.

Allie: hey, I know you're probably asleep, but I miss you

I don't expect a response because it's almost 3am, so I put my phone down and try to sleep some more.

•••

The next day is absolutely horrible. Everyone has seen the video of Ty 'kissing me' and there are millions of rumors flying left and right. So far, I've heard that he only wanted a one night stand but I turned him down, that I came on to him because I wanted to offend Peri, and that Ty and I are in love and were secretly dating. Of course, Peri pretends to be completely offended about the incident, even though I know it was her who took the photo of us.

Everywhere I go, I'm met with weird stares and a chorus of whispers. Needless to say, I'm more than happy to get out of school as fast as possible as soon as it's over.

Once I get home, I go straight to my room and check to see if Shawn texted me back, but he hasn't. I decide to try to call him, needing someone to talk to. Kelly and Faith made it clear I could come to them if I ever needed someone, but I really just want to hear Shawn's comforting voice. It's weird I'm so attached to him, since I used to be so wary of people.

When he doesn't answer, I feel my heart drop a little bit. I haven't talked to him since the Sunday before he left. It's only Tuesday, but even before we were a couple we texted everyday. It's weird not hearing from him in almost two full days.

I quickly push the suspicions of various senators that could have occurred to the back of my head and start met homework. He's just busy.

•••

Shawn must be pretty damn busy. I hate feeling like a clingy girlfriend, but he hasn't called or texted me in an entire week. I'm starting to go out of my mind, because I'm fairly certain he's ignoring me.

I sit on my bed, staring at his Twitter. He's been on Twitter everyday this week, so I know he's been on his phone. Yet no texts, calls, FaceTimes, nothing.

A few minutes later, I get a notification that Shawn tweeted.

@/shawnmendes: so glad to be home xx

I bite my lip and begin to pace my room. He's already back? He's definitely ignoring me. Maybe he saw the video or pictures. I have to admit, that hurts. I'm his girlfriend, he can't even give me the benefit of the doubt?

I try calling him again, but this time my phone doesn't get to three rings before he hangs up on me. He's definitely ignoring me.

I sigh, rubbing my temples as I bring up Aaliyah's contact. Maybe she can help.

"Hello?" Aaliyah's normally chirpy voice is soft and quiet, making me even more worried.

"Hey," I say, and I hear her sigh.

"I'm guessing you're calling because Shawn won't answer you," she says and I nod, forgetting she can't see me.

"He saw the video, didn't he," I conclude, flopping down on my bed.

"Yeah," Aaliyah says. "He's pretty upset about it."

I bite my lip harder until I feel a sting, followed by the taste of blood.

"It's not true, is it?" Aaliyah asks in a small voice. "Shawn really liked you." I feel a sting in my heart at the word liked. Does he not like me anymore? Of course he doesn't, he thinks I cheated on him!

I quickly shake the thought away. I'm not going to play the wounded girlfriend card. I've done nothing wrong, but I'm going to fix this.

"No, it isn't," I tell Aaliyah. I hear her sigh in relief before I continue, "Do you think I could come over? I really need to talk to Shawn," I say, mentally crossing my fingers.

"Yeah," Aaliyah says, and she sounds a little happier. I smile with hope as I get dressed and say goodbye to Aaliyah. I hope this works.

•••

Aaliyah gives me a timid smile as she opens the door, and I feel my heart pounding in my chest. I've never been this nervous before, not over a boy.

"Shawn's in his room, cmon," Aaliyah says quietly as I follow her upstairs. I can hear the faint strum of a guitar as we walk. I smile, remembering all the summer days we spent outside while Shawn fooled around on his guitar and we just talked about random things. I miss those days.

"Shawn, you have a visitor," Aaliyah says in her usual singsong voice, and I have to hold back a giggle. Shawn looks up with raised eyebrows and Aaliyah grabs my wrist and shoves me into the room. I mentally wince as Shawn's face drops.

"Good luck," Aaliyah whispers to me before shutting the door on her way out. I take a deep breath to try and calm my racing heart, with no success.

Shawn just sighs and turns around to tune his guitar, his back facing me.

"Shawn, I know you're upset," I start, and he chuckles bitterly.

"Do you? Congratulations, Allie knows how to state the obvious." He shakes his head, the resentment clear in his voice. I run a hand through my hair, trying to ignore the sting in my chest.

"Shawn, I didn't kiss Ty. He pushed me up against the lockers at school and —" I bite my lip again, pushing bad, bad memories out of my head.

Shawn turns around, his face blank. "And what?" He questions quietly.

"And he kissed me," I finish. "I tried to get away, but he had me pinned against the lockers," I mumble. Shawn raises his eyebrows.

"You look awfully guilty. Do you have feelings for him or something? Did you kiss back?"

My mouth drops. "What? No!" I close my eyes as I continue to chew on my lip, and I can feel his eyes on me.

"Then what?" He persists. I take another deep breath, not wanting those memories to come back.

"He pushed me against a locker," I repeat, "Wouldn't you be afraid when someone forcibly pushed you against a wall?" Shawn just shrugs. He doesn't get it. Of course he doesn't, he's never been forced to do something like that against his will.

"What, it's not like he was gonna —" Shawn stops short and his eyes shoot upward to meet mine. They soften and fill with sadness.

"Allie," he whispers, and I look down at the ground. I just shake my head.

"I love you Shawn. Not Ty, not some foster sibling. You." I sit down next to him as he lays his hand on my cheek. I can feel the fire coming back, the fire that burned inside me whenever we were close together, and I close my eyes.

"I'm so sorry," he mumbles, his face only inches from mine now. I purse my lips and just nod. "I forgive you."

"And Allie?"

"Hm?" I open my eyes to see Shawn's big, innocent, brown eyes staring into mine.

"I love you, too."

A/N - yay, they're all good again:) I don't like how the beginning of the chapter jumped around so much but I wrote this in study hall this morning, so oh well. I hope you're all enjoying the story so far, I'm aiming for 40 chapters total. Xoxo - Em😊❤️