A Little Too Much | Shawn Mendes (COMPLETED)

32 | Bring It Back

Allie's POV;

I don't even know what Shawn and I are anymore. Faith and Kelly told me that it was good I stood my ground, because, as I suspected, I didn't do anything wrong. Even thought I still feel guilty, I try to ignore it and distract myself. Turns out that if I use school as a distraction so I don't focus on Shawn so much, I'm a pretty great student.

Speaking of that, Shawn left without saying goodbye. It's literally been almost two weeks since the last time we talked, which was when we had our argument. It's almost May now, and Shawn will be back in three weeks or so. I really hope we're at least on talking terms by then.

"Should I text him?" I ask as we walk into school. "Yes!" Kelly exclaims. "No!" Faith shoots back, and the two glare at each other. I raise an eyebrow as I look from one to the other. They're always getting on each other's nerves.

"Shawn's the one at fault here, so he has to be the first to break the silence," Faith says as I open my locker.

"Just because they're fighting doesn't mean she can't text him. If Shawn wants to be the jerk the ignores Allie when she's trying to bring their relationship back, then he'll have shown his true colors," Kelly argues, and Faith rolls her eyes.

"If she does, Shawn will know he has a claim on her. If she can't go two weeks without talking to her previous boyfriend then he'll know that ignoring her will upset her, which is probably what he's trying to do since he's angry at her," Faith shoots back.

Is that what he's trying to do? I opened up to him so much, he knows all my weaknesses. I push a bad feeling from the pit of my stomach away and walk to class, trying to ignore Kelly and Faith as they continue to bicker.

Despite both their arguments, I decide to text Shawn.

Allie: hey...

To my surprise, he text back towards the end of the day. There's only one more class left after the one I'm in when I check my phone.

Shawn: took you two weeks to respond, that's longer than the last time you ignored me. Maybe you should go back to getting beaten by your foster brother if you need attention so badly

I feel my heart shatter when I read his text. Faith was right, he is trying to hurt me. And he did.

I push the lump rising in my throat away as the bell rings. I quickly grab my books and rush to my next class, but I can't focus. I hate that what he said hurt me so badly. How could he say something like that? He promised he'd always be here for me. He promised he would never hurt me. He promised...

I begin to grow angry as I recall all the promises he made, and broke. He's just like everyone else in this world. If I've learned one thing in my seventeen years of life, it's that the world is a cruel and selfish place. When I met Shawn, I started to believe that it depends on the people you meet, but I now know that this isn't true. The world is a dark place, and you can't trust anyone. They lure you in, only to shatter your heart. That's why I always vowed I would never let anyone else complete me. Because when they left, I would be like this.

The world is dark.

People are selfish.

And love most certainly doesn't exist.

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It's May now, and I still haven't talked to Shawn. He's actually texted me a few times since the last time he snapped at me, but I haven't responded. I just can't deal with him right now.

Faith and Kelly were appalled at what Shawn texted me when I showed them, and that was the day I decided I was done. I'm done with everything.

We I only get a short time on this earth. We're born, we live, we die. And we're irrelevant. We don't matter, not really. We may have a select few who care about us, but really, what's the point in living?

I sigh as I see a Twitter notification pop up on my screen. It's Saturday. Like I've been doing for a while now, I refuse to go out and do anything with Faith and Kelly. I try to focus on my schoolwork, but I find myself not really caring anymore. I don't seem to care about anything these days. Because Shawn broke me. I hate admitting that. But he did. Everything went downhill after our fight. But I guess happiness isn't meant to last. Nothing is.

A/N - I may or may not have listened to Bring It Back while writing this chapter... Psh, I totally didn't! 😉😉 man, Shawn you ruthless jerk wow why would you ever say something that to Allie okay rude. I hope y'all like the story so far:) xoxo - Em😊❤️