A Little Too Much | Shawn Mendes (COMPLETED)

23 | Almost Lovers

Allie's POV;

As soon as Shawn opened the door, his eyes practically popped out of his head, and he engulfed me in a hug. "Oh. My. God. Allie, where the hell have you been?!" He exclaims, pulling me inside. I sigh, running a hand through my hair. "It's kind of a long story," I mumble, and pulls me into the living room. "I have all day," he says sternly, sitting me next to him.

Now that I think about it, I'm not really sure if I want to tell him everything. It's my past, and I'd rather forget it and move on rather than dwell in it.

I sigh, reluctantly explaining how haywire everything went. I decide to leave the part out about Adam beating me, though. I'd really rather not bring that up, like, ever.

Shawn just stares at me with wide eyes, and pulls me into a hug. I flinch at first, wincing slightly from some bruises that are still healing, but thankfully Shawn doesn't notice. I'm just extremely happy to be back in his arms. I never noticed how much I missed him.

"Allie, I was so worried," he says, resting his chin on my head. I sigh, actually comfortable in his arms. "I know. I'm sorry. I would've contacted you, but my phone died," I tell him, and he squeezes me tighter. "I just can't believe how awful that woman was to you. Who does that?" I just shrug. More people than he'd think, that's for sure.

•••

We spend the rest of the day just sitting on the couch or on his bed, doing nothing. I refuse to look out the window at the house across the street. I can't think about how I lived there once, how I loved seeing the boy across the street everyday, how I missed him when he went on tour, and I most especially can't think about all the times Adam got angry and left me a bloody mess in my room.

"What happened with you and Hannah and Adam?" Shawn asks suddenly, snapping me out of my daze. "What do you mean?" I ask. He looks directly into my eyes, which I find somewhat creepy. I feel like he's sifting through my soul and deciphering my dirtiest secrets. A small shiver runs down my spine, but I shake it off and stare back at Shawn.

"Adam got arrested," Shawn says, still staring into my eyes. I raise my eyebrows, shrugging. "Don't know. All they told me was that they hadn't renewed their fostering license so I had to stay somewhere else until they got it renewed. And then my mom ended up regaining custody of me, so," I say nonchalantly. I will not think of all the things that happened in that house. I live my my real mother now, and she wouldn't do that. I hope.

Shawn just nods, and we continue to do nothing for the rest of the day, until his parents and Aaliyah come back. Aaliyah is as happy as ever, and comes blinding into Shawn's room. "We won, Shawn! We won, we —" she stops short as Shawn and I sit up, and she stares at me in shock. "Oh my god, Allie! I was so worried about, where on earth have you been?!" She exclaims, launching herself on top of me. I groan upon the impact as we fall back onto the bed, and Shawn chuckles. "I'll explain later," Shawn says, as Aaliyah gathers herself and gets off of me. "I'm just glad you're okay. Shawn was worried sick," she says with a sly smile, and he shoves her shoulder playfully. "Okay, goodbye!" Shawn exclaims, getting up and shoving her out of the room. She opens her mouth to say something else, but he shuts the door in her face before she has the chance. I raise my eyebrows. Huh. That was suspicious.

"Well that was rude," I say with a chuckle as he flops down next to me again. "Well, she's annoying," he chuckles, and turns to look at me. It's weird, the way he's staring at me. I don't think he's ever looked at me in such a way before, so... admiringly. It's almost weird, yet I find comfort in it. I don't know what's happening, I'm so confused.

"I think I better get home," I say, noting that sun is beginning to set. "Yeah," Shawn whispers. "Want me to drive you? I remember where your mom's house is." I open my mouth to object, but instead head myself say, "Sure."

As much as I'd like to deny it, there's something more between us than there was over the summer. I have no idea what it is or what to make of it, because it's like every time there's a silence we just stare at each other and have no idea what to say. I can feel the awkwardness looming over us when it happens, and I get the urge to curl up in his lap or something. I don't know.

I try to shake all these thoughts out of my head, and just as I come back to reality from my daze, I see that Shawn has pulled into my driveway.

"You're awfully quiet," he says, parking the car and turning to look at me. "Just thinking," I say with a sigh, and he gives a small smile. "Well, you better come over tomorrow, or I'll come here, or something. I went without seeing you for way too long," he chuckles, rubbing the back of his neck. I smile. "Alright. I'll probably crash your place again tomorrow," I say jokingly, and Shawn leans forward to give me a hug. "Cool. See you tomorrow then." I nod, and as I pull away, our faces are only inches apart. Again. Now that I think about it, we've almost kissed several times. And we actually did once. I almost forgot about that; it feels like ages ago. There weren't even any feelings involved back then, we barely knew each other. Wait, there weren't back then, but are there feelings now? I mentally shake my head, resisting the urge to kiss the boy in front of me as I pull away and get out of his car. "Bye," I whisper so quietly I didn't think he even heard me. But he did. "Bye," he says back, almost as if he was wishing I didn't have to go.

I shake the thoughts away, except they won't leave. Why was my urge to kiss Shawn just then so strong? It's not like he likes me that way. But then I remember the way he stares at me, how tightly he holds me, how affectionate he is towards me. We were always cuddly, but here's still something different about it it now. Does he like me? No, he doesn't. I shake my head as I enter the house, and go straight to my room. He couldn't possibly feel that way about me. But do I feel that way about him?

A/N - Oohhhh, we're getting closer and closer to something big ;) okay I'm sure you guys are all reading this and thinking 'OMG JUST KISS AND GET TOGETHER ALREADY!' But don't worry. Patience, children. Patience. I've got plans for the ending of this book. Hehehe😏 until next time! Ps: I know it's Christmas Eve, so merry Christmas! I have no life whatsoever which is why I decided to update today, but anywayyyyy yeah lulz
Xoxo - Em😊❤️