A Little Too Much | Shawn Mendes (COMPLETED)

40 | Little Does He Know

Allie's POV;

Touring with Shawn and his family has been amazing. I feel like I'm actually part of his family, which I suppose in a way, I am. They all love me so much, which I'm so thankful for. And I love them too.

Aaliyah has been glued to my side since our trip to Disney. She claims she has special rights to spend time with me because she met me first. I don't mind though, because she's adorable. And I have to admit, watching Shawn get jealous that I'm giving his little sister more attention than I'm giving to him is pretty funny.

"It's so cool we get to travel all over for the whole summer," Aaliyah sighs as she flops down on the hotel bed. We're currently in Nashville, Tennessee, where Shawn will be performing tonight.

I nod in agreement with Aaliyah as Shawn walks into the room. He sees Aaliyah and I laying on the bed and talking and a pout forms on his lips. I giggle and pat the spot next to me. "C'mere you big baby." Shawn grins and flops down beside me, pulling me into his arms. Aaliyah rolls her eyes in disgust and walks away, making Shawn and I laugh.

"So, I have a surprise for you," Shawn smirks. I groan, because he knows I hate surprises. He does this to me on purpose, I swear.

•••

I look around the stable as Shawn leads Aaliyah and I inside. "This is going to be so fun!" Aaliyah squeals. She skips ahead to catch up with her parents as a stable worker helps us get situated.

"Have you ever ridden a horse before?" I ask Shawn with a raised eyebrow. He shakes his head. "Nope, but today we're going to learn!"

Once we're all situated, our stable instructor, or whatever she's called, teaches us how to properly ride a horse and tells us all the safety tips. We get to go on a trail ride outside, and our instructor, Shay, will be leading us.

I carefully lead my horse down the trail. She's an older, very gentle mare named Maisie, and I like her already. She's very calm and laid back, which helps me relax. Shawn and I ride side by side while Aaliyah and her parents are further up with Shay.

"This is nice," I say with a smile, looking around at the shade the huge trees are providing. Shawn nods in agreement before pointing out a small child with her horse.

"She's cute," I state, and Shawn laughs in agreement.

"Hopefully our kids will be that cute," Shawn whispers.

I turn to him with a small smile. He wants to have kids with me? I haven't really thought that far into the future, but I mean, maybe...

"Do you think we'll be together in the future?" Shawn asks suddenly. He probably picked up on my silence and took it as a bad thing.

I shrug. "I don't know. But why worry about the future, when there's so much to enjoy right now?"

Shawn purses his lips, then smiles at me. "What happened to being so skeptical and worrisome?" He teases.

"I met you," I smirk back.

We continue making our way along the trail, and I start to wonder about our future. Meeting Shawn was definitely the best thing that ever happened to me. He helped me learn to trust people and that I could actually enjoy my life. He's the one who made my life worth enjoying.

To be honest, I've never really thought about having kids. I've certainly wondered and worried about my future, and tried to come up with a plan that could benefit my adult life. But now, suddenly all of that worry has gone away. I live with my birth mother, who is actually stable and responsible now, and I actually have a good life. I never thought that any of this would happen, so who knows what the future holds?

"I think we would make cute kids," I say with a giggle. Shawn grins over at me, making me smile. Maybe starting a family with him wouldn't be a bad thing.

•••

"Do you really want kids?" Shawn asks. He finished his Nashville show and we're currently laying on the floor, staring up at the ceiling.

I shrug. "I don't really know. Maybe," I say. Would I be a good mother? Why is Shawn even thinking about this? We're only teenagers, we have so much time to decide the rest of our lives.

"I think you'd make a good mom, if that's what you're worried about. Your past doesn't define who you are, it shapes who you are," he says. I smile. I remember telling him this when he asked about my past so long ago, when we first met. I guess we both taught each other something.

"I do love you, Shawn," I say. I lean over and peck his cheek, making him smile. "I know. I love you more." I shake my head. "I love you most."

I worry sometimes that Shawn thinks I don't love him as much as he loves me. But I do. I love him so much it hurts.

Little does he know how much I actually love him. How I lay awake at night dreaming about what we'll be doing in the future, how I stare at him while he sleeps because he looks like an angel. How I watch him practice playing guitar and writing songs because he's so focused and together. How his eyes light up the entire universe when he smiles and how his laugh is warm enough to make my body explode. Little does he know how insanely and irrevocably in love with him I am. Little does he know.

A/N - aw, I liked this chapter, it was cute, I hope you all liked it:)
Xoxo - Em😊💙