Love and Tragedy.

Chapter 6

Jo

We get the test results back today and I don't want to think about it but its the only thing I can think about. I get to work and put on my scrubs, I walk to my patients room im on peds today. My patient a 6 year old little girl named Jenna and shes dying. There's nothing we can do we tried everything her dad is still running around trying to find ways to save his baby girl her mom died in childbirth and so it has been me and her mostly. 

"Doctor  Jo?" "yes sweetheart" i asked a warm smile on my face "will you just hold me?" she asked and my heart broke "Yes honey." 

I got next to her in her bed and she cuddled up to me. "Your baby is going to be so happy" she said and started to drift off to sleep since she was my only patient today i stayed there holding this precious tiny human in my arms. Her breathing started to get worse and I knew it was almost time her dad walked in with a shocked look on his face. "Mr. Johnson I need you to come take my place its almost time." he just nodded and started to cry silently. He got where I was and she spoke "daddy I love you." she said and he told her he loved her, I stood my the machines listening to her dad tell her she was going to meet her mommy and everything was going to be okay and eventually he was going to go live up there with them and they would all be together again. I felt a tear run down my check and as i was wiped it off i heard the machines long beep that nobody liked. I turned the machine and called the time of death i then left as he was crying into her head. 

I walked to the supply closet and cried the little girl  was here and just like that she was gone. I looked at the clock and noticed it was almost time for my appointment so I got up and went straight there I got situated in the seat and Alex came in he came and sat by me holding my hand. The doctor came in and started asking the routine questions and then got ready to give me an ultra sound, I just wanted her to tell me I was going crazy not knowing. She put the gel on and put the wand in it she searched around and i stared at my babys little face I noticed the bump again and i looked back to his face. 

"Okay so i have some bad news." she said sighing and i nodded telling her to go on "That is a tumor and I dont know how bad it is until he comes out but it looks to be growing so you two have a choice, either keep him in there and keep it growing and he could possibly die inside you and that holds a threat to you and him or he comes out soon and he could die from the tumor already or he could die from coming this early  also in this case we have had mothers die, but it is much safer for you this way, both options are very risky." I looked over at Alex and back at the doctor "What would you do?" I asked choking up Alex started to rub my hand with his thumb "I would get him out now but that is your choice, but remember you can always have another baby but not another you." she said "I just need to know soon." she said walking out the door. 

I looked over at Alex who looked at the screen with our baby still on it, "What are we going to do?" I asked and he embraced me and I started to cry.