dialogue

endlessly

lily: i miss him

josh: oh your beau? your mans?

lily: he's not mine

josh: you want him to be yours tho

lily: i have to study for two tests and finish my application and all i can think about is him

josh: wow

lily: what

josh: i've never seen you like this, even with ethan

lily: well i didn't really know anything about him, we didn't even have a solid friendship, no wonder this is a surprise to you i haven't really liked anyone else since we've been friends

josh: you liked me

lily: haha yeah i think i was high the whole time

josh: hey!

lily: jokes, gosh, yeah that was weird, usually you go to your best friends when you like someone, but i liked one of my best friends

josh: were you like this with me

lily: nah

josh: oh, im hurt

lily: you had your own category man

josh: i see

lily: it's not like that matters anyways

josh: what if it did?

lily: i mean it kinda does since it transfers to now, when i have feelings for someone, it's different

i am no longer the could care less about your opinion, tunnel visioned to the point where i have constant bitch face, stressed girl anymore

it all falls, i become someone else like my existence is there to be for the other person

i'm forever smiling and quieter

i can't focus and it doesn't phase me 

josh: lily? is that you? quiet? smiling? 

lily: *just smiles*

josh: no comeback? no sarcastic remark?

lily: nah, i'm just happy y'know, that person becomes an infatuation, my thoughts become the memories i remember and the nights spent laying dreaming