dialogue

trust

her- i wanna be friends again

me- me too, but i don't think that's a good idea rn

her- why

me- i'm frustrated with you

her- wtf why

me- look ik i rushed things, and we were in diff places and maybe our end was inevitable due to the culmination of a lot of crappy circumstances, but you couldn't trust me

her- can you blame me? you've seen the shit i've been thru

me- that's not a good enough excuse, you can't hold that against me, i'm not your mom, i'm not your ex's, i told you i'd be there for you unconditionally and that i'd stay and i kept my promises, but you didnt believe me so you did things bc you thought it'd keep me around

her- i didnt want you to think that i didn't like you, i never wanted to be someone that made you question how i felt for you 

me- i knew! i fucking knew, i told you i understood, and it was gonna be something i had to cope with, you were the one who lead me on who told me you were making break throughs that even tho touching wasnt your thing, you craved for me

her- sometimes.. sometimes i craved you, that wasnt a lie. and that is a huge deal, bc i can barely be touched. but sometimes i cant touch or be touched and it has nothing to do with you

me- SO WHY'D YOU DO IT ANYWAY, i told you never put up a front with me, with me act how you feel bc i want to know that in your raw form that we'll be together, that we vibe and you acted bc you thought it was something i needed? i needed you to be honest with me

her- I'm sorry

me- i never rushed for you to be vulnerable or open up to me, i just wanted to know that every action you took was one that you wanted to take, don't go along with things bc you felt like it was the right thing to do, i promised you i'd stay and i held my promise everytime things got hard

her- i was scared

me- i know, it's just i would've done you right

her- i always waited on the day you'd stop liking me

me- i haven't stopped and we're not even together anymore

her- i wasn't ready, i'm sorry i wasn't

me- it's not about being ready, it's about communication, i can't accommodate if i don't know

i know i was asking you a lot, but i just needed you to trust me