i was moving on
i still missed him
i thought about him often, how he was doing
sometimes i'd imagine if we would bump into each other, hoping we would
the world bringing us together somehow, being in the right place or right time
but then i thought of choice
how each time i called he wouldn't answer
and no longer am i mad
but i refuse to devote time to that
or i am trying to make it my mission to stop feeding this vicious cycle
so i let go, i sent love and light every time i thought of you, lingered a little, and then moved on
sometimes you come up in conversation, unintentionally of course
some customer asked me where you were, why was i always associated with you
our favorite coworker asked about you, i said i didn't know and truly i didn't
i wasn't angry or sad, just unattached to the idea of you
and i was free, just reminiscing about the past because that's what i do
i wanted to keep my memory of you like that and move you to my past
i wanted it to be untouchable
but then you called
you called and pointed things out in me because you know me, i know you know me
our banter was natural
you were affectionate
and once again it was like we never stopped
but it irritated me that you expect me to do the heavy lifting when i'm the busier one
and i couldn't keep pouring myself into you without getting any back
so i cut myself off, hoping to let you go
but you called
you called.
asked me when i was coming over
asked for a kiss over the phone
told me you missed me
called me poop endearingly
and instead of the homework that i told you i was going to do, i'm here writing this about you
YOU ARE READING
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General Fiction>conversations >chats >situations >fantasies Basically, this is the place where d i a l o g u e leaves my mind and comes to die.