dialogue

best mistake

lily: do you ever doubt us?

josh: us? we're an us?

lily: see we don't even know what we are..

josh: why do we need labels? i thought we were better than that, we're everything and nothing, aren't we?

lily: labels are helpful

josh: have you been watching too many chick flicks?

lily: no.

josh: does it matter that much to you? who cares what we're labeled as

lily: i do

josh: oh that make it different

lily: yeah

josh: you know i'd lay down everything for you, babe and no we're not "together" nobody walks around saying we're a couple but we know each other  like best friends bc you're my best friend, we argue like an old married couple, play around like brother and sister, i've never once ever felt scared or nervous to tell you something or do something bc i knew you'd support me all the way, i knew at the end of the day no matter what shit we weren't on common ground on we'd come back where none of that mattered & i knew you felt something somewhat mutual, you tell me all the time you love me or tell me that you're so glad to have met me and i say it too not as much as that i should but i do, maybe it seems like im joking but lily - anne somers i am in love with you everything you do and everything you say everything you are and you're not every flaw, every mistake i love you for it and if i even once made you doubt that then im sorry

lily:

josh: lil?

lily: too many feels, babe, too many feels

i know that you don't mean to and maybe it's just me being paranoid but sometimes i feel like if  you'll run from me, i mean you technically have no ties to me, yeah it'll be sad but it's not like we were together right and yeah we're the bestest of friends but there's always that what if, i feel like sometimes i'm not good enough to be your girlfriend... that's the reason you've never asked even jokingly, i bet you'd never even pondered over the thought and i can't blame you for that if that's not how you feel until you come along that girl that will make you feel that way, that will make you wanna marry her right there and than

josh: who says i haven't felt that way? i mean i keep trying to marry pizza but mom doesn't wanna give us our blessing

lily: i hate you so much

josh: no you don't

lily: i don't ... and that's why i hate you so much

josh: i'm being serious, what makes you think i haven't felt that way?

lily: bc it's one of my deepest fears

josh: oh lil', you're killing me, no i'm not looking for a girlfriend or a relationship for the matter bc to me those always end, those i can screw up and most of the time they're not salvagable and i don't want that for us, i don't wanna screw us up i don't want any pressure or to pressure you and expectations will just kill us bc their are a million things a "good boyfriend" should do and i probably would be too vapid to know what they are, i can't ruin us when we're best friends that's the place where time can't touch us, where pressure won't get to us, and where expecatations won't crush us i don't wanna be the one to end this

lily: first of all, you're not a normal person what makes you think you'll be a normal boyfriend & you know that's an excuse about not knowing what a boyfriend would do because you do, you're just too rebellious to fit in a category and i love you for that you fucker and that's bs bc you could definitely kill us as best friends it'd have to be really really really bad but you could you know, the difference when you're my boyfriend you're responsible for the mistakes you make

josh: oh, when i'm your boyfriend huh?

lily: bleh

josh: bleh back at you babe

lily: you give me headaches

josh: i love you too lil' i love you too

lily: i'm not gonna give up til you say no or something

josh: who says i'll say no?

lily: i hate you, stop it, you just like to push my buttons, you just said you didn't frekin want a relationship

josh: i don't... but if it means that much to you

lily: but you'll be miserable... you'll have to be my boyfriend

josh: i could never be miserable with you, i'm gonna break your heart lil' and you're gonna kill me, this is a mistake

lily: no you're not and i won't.. well maybe & who cares i asked for this right? i'll have it coming and if you're a mistake which i highly doubt, you'll be the best mistake i've ever made

josh:

lily: thank you, i want this so bad

josh: i want you so bad & i'll hate myself even more if i let you leave

lily: i'm not going anywhere

josh: i'm doing this mainly bc i'm selfish and i want to keep you forever

lily: don't care as long as you're mine, officially mine

josh: oh god, you're ridiculous but i love you, alright, is that okay with you my official girlfriend?

lily: perfect