dialogue

let go

josh: are you okay

lily: no idk, i should be ...

josh: whats wrong

lily: i'm just in my bag, this'll pass

josh: but what are you feeling

lily: i feel stuck

im losing hope

im questioning if this is even worth it

josh: do you have reason to believe things aren't supposed to go the way as planned

lily: well yeah, she has problems, ones beyond that can be fixed and she has to deal with them

i didnt ask for this

she just kept flirting with me 

and i fell for her

and she fell for me

it's prob just bad timing

josh: how badly do you want this to work

lily: badly 

i could see myself falling in love with her

this is the first time I've envisioned someone to be more than my gf/bf but to my spouse

and maybe i am drawn to the broken souls that i have some weird notion

that i can be the one to save her

ik that's wrong, i've told her that, but i forgot along the way

josh: oh lil', i'm sorry

lily: me too

josh: maybe it's time to let go?

lily: how can i look into her face when i've told her so many times that i would be there

im not a liar

i meant it at the time