Learning to Trust

Chapter 19 - Next Step

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Chapter 19 - Next Step

Tobias

I just don't know what happened.

One minute I'm telling her all about Indy and she's all calm, then she eventually falls asleep.

The next she's up, screaming at the top of her lungs.

It was horrifying.

"It's okay. She does that sometimes. The only way she seems to eventually stop is if you just let her get it out." I remember Julie saying.

I couldn't just sit there and listen to her scream.

It killed me inside.

Of course, in the end, Julie was right. After twenty or so minutes she did stop and was fine.

That was when I started to talk again.

I told her all about the past few initiation classes I have had.

How different they are now.

How it isn't just sixteen year olds.

How the main objective isn't to knock people out.

How nobody gets cut.

How much nicer the initiates are because of the changes.

I remember stopping mid-sentence when she screamed again.

I could tell a difference in this scream from the last one.

Last time, it was fear.

This time, it is pain.

The image still sticks in my head, clear as day.

It was just so clear; so horrific.

She shook, trembled as she screeched a blood-curling scream that made my ears numb. Her back arched off the hospital bed as her face turned bright red and scrunched up in pain.

I just sat there, unsure of what to do.

She was always the stress-thinker; the one that wouldn't break under pressure; the one to lean on in the moments that scared people the most.

Not me, her.

At first, it was just her scream.

But then she was silent.

Her back went flat against the bed.

She lay still.

Too still.

It took me a second to realize that her scream was replaced with a different scream.

A scream almost worse to hear than hers.

The flat line of the heart monitor attached to her chest.
   
   
     
     
      
       
           
 
  
   

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I don't know much of what happens after that.

I do know that her heart stopped two more times that night.

I also do know that she is breathing right now, just not conscious.

They have her in an ICU room where someone is constantly watching her every second, along with all of the wires connected to her body letting the computers watch her at the same time.

Of course, no one can see her now.

They don't know if she's going to wake up.

But if she does, she's going to have to fight, and it won't be an easy one.

I just wish she could get a break. It's no matter that stress is eating her body like a wild animal to its prey; she's been at war all by herself for at least four years now.

I know she can do it.

At least I hope she can.

  

What's the next step from here?

I wish I knew.

There is one thing I do know.

If she does wake up, it's going to be that much harder for her.

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