These secrets will kill us Oliver Sykes

Chapter 6 ~ This guilt could fill a fucking sea.

Oliver's POV

"You've got to be joking, why would I give you a person in change for drugs? I chuckled, "I'll give you them back"

"No refunds mate, besides you're too addicted, you couldn't give them back if you tried" he paused "so that's the deal Oli, refuse it and well you know what happens, I'll be in the living room when you've decided, choose carefully" he winked and made his way to the living room. I knew he was right, I suddenly felt sick and returned to the kitchen to find Veronica dancing on the kitchen table. Her eyes lit up when she seen me "Oliverrrrrr!" she slurred, I held my arms up and she jumped into them. I was sure she was getting lighter, it worried me.

"Oliverrrrrrr!" she repeated and tilted her head back laughing, I laughed too.

"V" I said "V look at me", her eyes were dilated and red, she was high.

"Yesss?" she questioned. I looked into her innocent blue eyes and I couldn't leave her with Sam. 

Yes you can.

She'll be fine, she won't even remember and you'll be free and even more importantly alive. It's a win win situation Oliver. My conscience argued back and I wasn't expecting it too. But I knew how bad things got when Sam didn't get what he wanted, I had to help him and his friends beat this guy up once in order to get in with the 'popular crowd', he died. Simply because they had an argument, I didn't know what about, that wasn't any of my business. Of course I didn't want to do it but I did and I wasn't proud of it, the guilt ate me alive everyday.

"Oliver, I...I...I..." she stuttered

"Spit it out love" I chuckled as she pushed herself closer to my body

"Oliverrrrr, listen to me!" she shouted, a smile formed across my face "I...I think you look, I think you look very very hot tonight" she stated. I couldn't help but laugh, she was completely out of it, she had no idea what was going on. "You look gorgeous yourself" I returned the complient. "and, and, AND shhh" she shouted and then giggled as she stretched herself out in my arms.

I shook my head and laughed carrying her bridal style out of the dining room, "I love you Oliver Scott Sykes" she grinned, I stopped dead in my tracks, what did she just say? Did she mean it? No, she's drunk and high. She'll definitely regret it in the morning, "Oli I need a drink" she complained before I even got to reply "Do you want me to go get you one love?" I offered. She hesitated a little and looked into the distance "ermmmm" she dragged it out "nope" she popped the p while snatching a beer out of someone's hand, they glared at her which she returned with a smile and took a long drink, obviously happy with her work.

"V, listen to me, I love you but you're going to go and spend some time with some guys for a bit, okay?" I felt nauseated and weak, how could I do this to her? My conscience was still arguing with eachother but the negative voice won, just like it always does.

She looked like a lost toddler in a super market before nodding, I carried her over to the living room seeing Sam and his group on the sofa on the other side of the room. "I'll see  you in a little while, okay?" I whispered and kissed her temple. I carried her halfway and Sam and hs group walked over to us, I handed Veronica over to him and he started to walk away, up the stairs. Veronica stretched her hand out over Sam's shoulder "Oli don't leave me" she called, my eyes teared up "Oli? Oli this isn't funny" a tear rolled down my cheek as I stood at the bottom of the stairs and watched her being taken from me. "OLI PLEASE DON'T LEAVE ME" she started crying and so did I, what had I done? I was a waste of a human life and a pathetic excuse for one. I watched her trying to fight her way out of Sam's arms but she was too weak, I looked at them before they disappeared into an empty room.

I slid down the wall and started to sob, I bolted up and ran to the toilets where I was violently sick, I was shaking like crazy, I grabbed a drink to try and dissolve the horrible after taste in my mouth. I kept replaying every sick moment, I couldn't get her begging for me to help her out of my head. I was vile, I should of let him kill me, it's what I deserved. "Thanks mate, we're even now" a voice said interrupting my thoughts, I snapped my head up to reveal Sam standing there, my eyes widened, I had to find her. "Rad party man, I'll see you later" how could he act like nothing had happened?! I got up, my legs were like jelly they barely supported me but I ran to the room where I had seen them last.

I opened the door and saw her lying in her underwear on the floor, she wasn't moving, she had her eyes closed. I rushed and collapsed at her side, I pulled her into my arms and rocked her back and forth. The tears streaming down my cheek. I removed her long hair that was slightly covering her face, her eye make up had ran down her cheeks and they were also stained with dried tears. She looked somewhat happy, like nothing could harm her, like nothing would harm her, it was like she finally at peace with the world.

A/N I'm so happy that people are enjoying this, oh my god hsgefrigher, thanks to everyone that have read, voted and commented. You actually have no idea how happy it makes me when I read the comments;3

Sorry if it's short, I'll make sure to write longer updates

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