Shawn Mendes Imagines

48: Slip away Part 3

Y/N's POV:

My heart physically hurts as I stare down at the creamy off-white invitation in my hands. It was considerate of him to invite me, although we had been on some rough 'good' terms lately. I tried to move on and forgive him, but the fire that I thought had died, was being rekindled. And it hurts.

You have been invited to the wedding of:
             Shawn Peter Raul Mendes
                               &
             Reagan Melody Wilkinson
                  £•£•£•£•£•£•£•£•£•£
                    On the date of:
                         4•11•16

Everything I dreamed of with Shawn disappeared the day I walked away from him. I wanted exactly what Reagan has. I wanted a grand wedding in the middle of spring. I wanted Shawn's love. I dreamed of a future with him.

With hesitation, I mark the 'I will be attending alone' box with a check and slide the card stock back into the formal envelopes.

In twenty days, I'll be watching the girl I envy the most parade down the aisle towards her groom. The groom that should have been mine.

Shawn and I had been talking about marriage for a few months before his tour, and even off and on throughout the first few months. All of the 'what ifs' had turned into 'when.'

When we get married, we'll get married in the spring.

When we get married, we'll invite all of both sides of our families.

When we get married, we'll write our own vows.

Now I've watched everything that we used to think about crumble at my feet.

As I seal the wedding invitation back into the envelope, it takes everything in me not to rip it back open and check the 'I will not be attending' box.

I can't stand to see another girl exchange vows with the man I still love. I can't stand to see him slide the ring onto her finger, or lean in and kiss her at the end. I can't stand to see them walk back down the aisle, hand in hand, and know that he is someone else's husband.

But I guess that's just what happens when I let him slip away.

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A/N:

Yay for sadness.

Anyways, thanks for making me do a part three, kittycat122700 because I'm really digging this.

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