Shawn Mendes Imagines

46: Long distance

Y/N's POV:

*flashback*

"Y/N, I'm going to miss you so much." Shawn sighed, pulling my body tighter to his. I buried my face into the sheets trying to hide the tears that were welling up in my eyes.

"I don't know how I am going to go every night without your body pressed against mine." I mumbled, releasing a deep sigh. Tears started to cascade down my face as I ran my hands along his strong arms which were wrapped around my torso. He squeezed me tightly, kissing my hair.

"I know, baby." He murmured. "But we still have tonight."

The next morning, I grabbed my suitcase, and moved thirty hours away with only a hug and kiss to sustain me until I could move back home.

*14 months later*

"Gosh, I miss you so much. I can't believe you went on tour right before I got home." I whisper. His camera shakes as his bus hits a bump in the road.

"I miss you more. I know, but I had to. Andrew just walked by. I've got to let you go. I love you." The volume of his voice matches mine.

"I love you too, Shawn." I reply. The screen flickers, then goes black as he cuts the connection, and I'm left alone to sob again. For about two weeks, I've been considering ending our relationship. And pretty much every night, after we would talk, I would cry about it.

I've been together with Shawn for two and a half years, and I really do love him, but I can't keep living on seeing him through a screen. I miss his lips against mine. I miss the smell of his cologne wrapped around me as we hugged. I miss our late night "love" sessions. I miss him. But I can't bring myself to say the words.

I'm suffering. I'm breaking into a million pieces. I'm not me. I'm practically dead inside.

It's time.

I pull my phone off the nightstand and send Shawn the 11 little words that changed my world and his forever.

I can't do this. I miss you too much. We're done.

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A/N:

Well, here is another sad one. Sorry not sorry.

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