It all started a year ago.
The first time I saw him I felt as if I was seeing an old friend.
The first time we spoke it was like we connected on a different level. It was like we understood eachother better than ourselves.
The way my legs shook. The way my heart skiped a beat. The way my stomach did back flips everytime the thought of him surfaced. The way his love made me feel so high. I felt like I've finally done something right. I felt like life finally gave me happiness.
But I also remember the way it felt when he left. Days of feeling completely lost. Weeks of tiredness and tear stained sheets. Months of senseless hope staring at my phone waiting for something - anything. I came crashing down from that high. Hard.
I kept my eyes glued on the screen as I read an article "Calum Hood's new mistery blonde".
It's been months sense our break up but the pain was still the same. It these days I managed to convince my sel that I was okay, that I have moved on but deep inside I knew I wasn't.
"(Y/N) you have got to stop reading these" Jenna said looking at me from across the table, "I've stopped I just..." I trailed off "Why are you still so hung up on him? I've told you a million times, he's not worth it" she said leaning forward and supporting herself on her elbows.
"It's whatever. Don't worry about it" I brushed it off "Is it because he's back?" she mummered. I looked away for a moment because I didn't want her to see the tears building up.
"Yeah" I whispered "Okay, look at the positive site. You'll get to see Mickey" she smiled hopefully "I guess so" I said turning my cup of coffee in circles.
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I picked up my phone debateing rather or not I should call Michael. When I started dating Calum, I also clicked with Michael. He aventually became my shoulder to lean on but because of the tour I haven't spoken to him in months.
I decited to go against my will and diale his number. It rang about 4 times but he still didn't pick up and just as I was about to hang up "Hello?" the familiar voice spoke "Hey Mikey" I sang "(Y/N)! " he yelled over the phone and I giggled "Heard you were back" - "Yeah we just landed yesterday" he told me "Would it be too soon if I came over?" I asked. I really needed him. Not seeing him for so long, it left a hole in my life as I was so use to him giving me advice and telling me exactly what I needed to hear.
"Are you kidding me? Come over right now for fucks sakes I want to see my best friend" he yelled into the phone "I'll be there in 15 minutes" I laughed "Alright. Bye honey pie!" he joked.
A/N: Heya! Still writing with my phone so I'm sorry for any misspelled words x Comment for part 2 if ya want more? (:
