It's been days sense my last conversation with Calum up until he invited me over to their place. Of course I dragged Jenna with me just for the emotional support I needed. One thing was very clear to me and that was; I still wasn't over Calum.
We got to their house around 9pm and we settled down on the rooftop/balcony on a few chairs and a sofa. We had s little bonfire going on and I was relaxed as I've haven't been in a long time.
Calum sat opposite me and I noticed from time to time that he was looking at me but I brushed it off as if I didn't know.
My legs were covered in a blanket and I was sat down next to Jenna, "I'm craving pizza man" said Ashton streching his arms above his head "And I definitely need a drink" said Michael as he got up "Hey, you wanna cone with me to the store for some beer?" he asked Jenna after poking her shoulder. She nodded getting up shooting me a "I'm sorry" look.
I looked over at Calum who's eyes were already looking at me and I nodded my head twords the exit. He smiled at me and we got up and made our way inside.
"Can I ask you something?" I asked him sitting down in the living room's couch next to him "Go ahead.." he trailed off, "It's about us" I said making sure he's fine with me talking about this.
He stayed quiet looking at me and waiting for me to speak "I don't really know how to put this but.." I said pausing and looking at him "... why did you leave?" I asked.
He let go a breath like he's been holding it inside him a long time "Why?" he shook his head "What why?" "Why do you wanna know that?" he asked sounding already annoyed by the situation.
"Uh, I don't know maybe because you just left with out a reason or explanation for tour and then showed up 9 months later acting like we never happened. You really don't get it do you?" I said and huffed "Get what?" "I can't unlove you Calum! I made peace with the fact that you moved on but all I need i-" I said but "Hold on what do you mean I moved on?" he cut me of frowning his eyebrows "Oh please Caluum I don't live under a rock I saw the pictures that were taken of you with a ton of other girls." I said crossing my arms infront of my chest. I leaned back on the couch and looked away to stop tge tears that were slowly forming in my eyes.
"Maybe I spend my time with those girls because I CAN'T move on. Maybe I'm still in love with you.." he said taking of guard, "Fuck (Y/N).." he shook his head "I think about you a lot..All the time actually. In the morning, at night, in the middle if the day. It's you. It's just always you. Anywhere I go and who ever I meat I just can't get you out of my head" he added "Then why leave Calum? If you loved me so m-" "I left because I knew I couldn't handle being away from you" he said.
"So leaving me in pain and confusion was a much better choice, huh" I chuckled swiping the tear that escaped my eye "I was scared okay" he said "But why!" I kept pushing "Maybe I was scared you mean more to me than any other person"
At this point I did the only thing I could think of; and that was to kiss him.
I grabbed a hold of his shirt and pulled him closer, crashing our lips togather. He immidiately responded by placing his hands on my hips and getting lost in the kiss.
It quickly turned into a full make out session making me starttle his lap. My hands wrapped around his neck tugging on his short curls. He aventually moves on to my neck leaving sloppy kisses behind me while his hands run up and down my thighs.
"Can we go somewhere more private?" I whispered against his lips trying to catch my breath and he nodded pecking my lips.
He grabbed me by the back of my thighs and carried me to his bedroom. Laying me down on the bed he quickly hovered over me. He didn't say anything he just looked at me and ran his thumb over my bottom lip "I'm sorry" he mummred. I tilted my hand kissing his thumb "Show me how sorry you are" I whispered as he cupped my cheek.
He nodded again and caught my lips in a passionate kiss. Tugging on my shirt he waited for me to conform that I was okay with this. I pulled away from the kiss and flipped us over taking off my shirt. His eyes were focused on my bra covered breasts and he was trying his hardest not to touch me.
I let my hand drift down his stomach and hooked my fingers to his belt before leaning in and kissing him again. I undid his belt and unzipped his pants pulling them down his legs.
His hands reached behind my back unclapsing my bra. Kneading my brests in his hands, he sat up a little before taking one in his mouth. A moan escaped my lips as I felt his warm tongue on my skin getting me wetter.
"I need you so bad" he whispered against my flesh before flipping us over again.
He kissed down my stomach and stopped at my jeans slowly pulling them down along with my panties. I tugged on his own shirt pulling it over his head. He removed the his final piece of clothing and settled between my open legs "I love you" he said supporting himself on his elbows "I love you too." I said before I felt him slide into me.
