Letting Go

Chapter 16 - Forever

Tricia's POV

Today is January 28.

English time na namin ngayon.

"Good Afternoon Class!" sabi ni Nanay. Siya ang english teacher namin.

Kaya minsan pag free time, mag uusap lang kami. Kami kasi ang super close. Nakakapagopen-up siya sa sakin agad, the same way na mag oopen up ako sakanya.

Antagal din niyang nawala. Kaya ngayong bumalik siya, natambakan kami ng maraming stories.

"So today you'll be writing your last formal theme." sabi niya. "You'll be debating about the topic I'll give you in a while." dagdag pa niya. "Basta ilalagay niyo bakit oo, bakit hindi. If lalagyan niyo ng experiences, much better. So yeah, you may start now."

Sinulat niya yung topic sa board...

"Is there a  forever?"

Ay ang galing.

"Miss san po ilalagay?"
"Miss cursive?"
"Miss pwede pong lumipat ng upuan?"
"Uy penge one whole!"
"Uy ako rin!"
"Hingi mo ko!"

Magkakasama kaming magkakaibigan dito sa dulo ng classroom. Nagdadaldalan. Nakakatamad magsulat.

"Uy pengeng Tomi!" sabi sakin ni Jayson. Kumakain kasi ako ng tomi.

"Tricia!!!! May one whole ka?" sabi sakin ni Nica. "Wala eh. Naiwan ko."

"Hoy Tricia peram ngang ballpen!" sabi sakin ni Rence. "hiniram ko nga lang din to kay Janella eh."

"Ahhhhh!!"

"Huy Erika! Bat ka tumitili diyan?" sabi ni Janella. Ako naman natatawa nalang kasi nga kumakain akong tomi.

"Meron na kong nagawa!!!"

Aba masipag gumagawa.

"Aba masipag ka ngayon ah! Porket inspired ka?" sabi ko sakanya.

"Patingin nga ng sayo!" sabi niya sakin sabay hablot sa papel ko.

"Ay aba ang linis!" sabi niya.

Hindi pa kasi ako nag susulat. Hindi ko kasi alam kung pano. HAHAHAHA. I mean, meron ba?

I started writting...

Forever and a Day

May forever ba? Eh?

Dati naman nung bata ako naniniwala akong may forever eh...

When one forever ends, a new forever begins. When I was a kid, I do believe in fairytales, happily ever after and in forever. I believe that when two person loves each other, forever exist. "Why do people fall in love?" This is one of the hardest questions to answer. Maybe, if this would be included in bar exams, there will be no professionals in the world now.

Bakit? Totoo naman diba? Bakit ba naiinlove ang isang tao? Kasi maganda? Kasi sexy? Kasi pogi? Matalino? Mabait? Maraming rason bakit tayo nagmamahal.

Love; is like water, you don't know how it wash away thirst. Like wind, you don't know why is it inportant in taking a rest. Like AIDS, you don't know how to cure it once you're infected with it.
They say that when you fall in love, you don't know, you don't care what other people will say or do. Just love.

May mga taong ganito naman. Walang pakielam sa ibang tao, basta kayo? kayo na. Wala ng hahadlang. Basta love? love lang.

Does forever exist? Yes, I am a believer that there is.

Eto na... 

I fell in love, got hurt, then fell in love again. I fell in love with a guy who's perfectly admired by many.

Neil is everything. Sobrang dami kong kaaaw sakanya dati. Miski lower at higher grade meron.

Beautiful and smart girls surrounds him - very far from my personality.

Malayong malayo sa kung sino ako. Hindi naman ako kagandahan, hindi rin naman ako sobrang talino tulad ng iba.

But he stayed loyal, loved me and loved my flaws, in short, he loved me as much as he could.

He accepted me for who I am. Hindi niya sinabi na baguhin ko ang isang bagay. Kung ano, at sino ako, tinanggap niya ako.

I gave the same love that he deserve. He made me believe that there is a forever.

Napaniwala niya akong hindi niya ako sasaktan. Napaniwala niya akong kami na,  forever.

Seventeen months ago, he brought so much cheer that every girl would dream.

August 28, 2014; Exactly 17 months ago. Sobrang saya ko nun. Hindi ko akalaing mamahalin ako ng isang Neil Reyes.

"I love you; Forever and a day." The sweetest thing that I always hear from him.

Lagi. Ganito kami lagi. "I love you forever and a day. Tulog na mahal, bukas mahal parin kita."

A forever that everyone would ever wish for. But of course; all good things must come to an end. A happening in my life that I didn't know that would come.

Ang araw na hindi ko akalaing daratong. My worst nightmare yet other's dream.

But I didn't stop believing. Believing that forever exist because the story isn't over yet.

Hindi pa naman tapos ang storya hindi ba? May ibang chapters at pages pa. Hindi lang naman siya ang darating.

Yes, I still do believe in forever. Because forever is not just 'forever', but forever and a day. After forever, there comes the day. A day for second chances, a day to correct our mistakes, a day to fulfill our promises. Yes, there is a forever.

Oo, merong forever.

Kaya sa mga hindi naniniwalang may forever? Wag kayong magpakabitter kasi hindi lahat ng forever ay connected sa pagmamahal ng opposite sex.

Forever is just a word. Nasa sainyo naman kung paano niyo gagawing forever and byahe niyo.

Ako? Kahit wala na kami, hindi ako titigil na maniwala sa forever. Hindi pa naman tapos ang storya.

Marami pang darating sa buhay mo. Sa buhay natin.

Wag mong isara ang pinto sa mga opportunities na kakatok para sainyo, wag mong isara ang puso mong magmahal ng ibang tao.

"Ay beh ang lalim!" sabi ni Janella while reading my formal theme.

"Ay pak! May forever!" sabi naman ni Erika.

"Aba aba! Pumo-forever! HAHAHA" sabi ni Michelle.

Habang si Carly at Trish busy parin sa pagsusulat.

Don't stop believing in forever. Because forever is not just 'forever' but forever and a day.

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