I don't want to feel

Chapter 41

[ A/N- That's it, guys... It's the final chapter... Thanks again for your amazing support and for reading my very first story until the end... Thank you, thank you, thank you!!! :) ]

So, that’s it, then. I’m going to L.A.

I took a look at the pile of suitcases in front of me.

My new guardian, a certain uncle Harry, had told me it wouldn’t be a problem as Kane and I would travel on one of my grandfather’s private aircrafts.

Yeah, I didn’t even know I had an uncle, let alone an Uncle Harry… Imagine if Harry was short for Harrison, and that the famous actor came to pick us up at the airport… How cool would that be?!

Not very likely, though…

We were leaving the next day. A mini bus would pick us up at nine o’clock in the morning.

Brad and Becca, who were now the proud parents of Mia, the cutest blue-eyed baby girl in the world – and I’m totally objective, there! – had thrown a farewell party for Kane and I the evening before.

They had invited the Conways and Sarah, several local surfers I got on well with, five nice guys from class. Even Coach came, and I actually cried when he told us how much he would miss us.

I then invited him and all the others to come and visit us whenever they wanted.

They all agreed. Would they really do it? Only time would tell…

I decided to opt for an early night as tomorrow would probably end up being a very emotional day, so I changed into my sleeping shorts and tee-shirt, slipped into bed and turned the light off.

My thoughts immediately went to Kane.

Josh had invited the whole class over at his, for a final party before we all took different paths.

When I had told Kane I wouldn’t go, he’d offered to stay with me but I had refused.

No way was I going to prevent him from hanging out with these boys he’d called his best friends for so many years.

I started replaying everything that had happened this year in my head.

I don’t know how many hours I stayed there, lying on my bed, laughing and then crying as the memories flashed back…

I spent a long time debating over what to make of Adam’s short appearance in my life.

On the one hand, I hated him with all my might for the way he broke my heart. But on the other hand, I couldn’t help but being grateful for all he’d done for me. He was the one who enabled me to let go of my past, and who showed me how to deal with all the crap life throws at us.

I wouldn’t be there if he hadn’t taken me under his wings on that stormy Saturday night at Josh’s party.

He had fixed me.

Something tugged at my heart, then, when I realized that Kane had distanced himself from him and Josh because of me.

I started to have second thoughts about letting him come with him… What if he was doing it for the wrong reasons?

Just then, I heard the front door slam.

I got out of bed, and without taking the time to put on warmer clothes, I went to see him. I had to make sure he wasn’t doing a mistake.

I saw light coming from the kitchen, so I headed there.

Kane was taking a can of Coke from the fridge when I got there.