Broken ≠ G.D

Colorado -- California//05

Grayson and I had been up all night; we were both exhausted. He really was a great listener, I loved that he stayed up with me all night just to make sure I was okay. There is absolutely no way either of us were going to drive back to California on no sleep.

"Wow, you guys must have gotten up super early," Ethan mentioned. "Emma are you sure you're going to be able to drive? You look so tired already."

"I am tired," I pouted. "I couldn't really sleep last night, so much on my mind you know?" I still was extremely upset to be leaving my home behind along with all the memories. I felt like we were giving up on Brecken and leaving my mom behind. Talking with Gray all night definitely help but it didn't make me feel any less upset about the situation I was in.

"I'd be more than happy to drive your car, you can sleep in the back and we can switch once you wake up." Ethan was so kind to offer. Although, I really wanted to spend more time with Grayson, even though its basically "forbidden" according to Jaxon. I also didn't want it to be obvious that after last night I'm completely falling for the guy. Maybe it would be nice to get to know Gray's twin brother, I mean he is going to be my new roommate as well.

"That sounds like an absolutely amazing idea, I'm exhausted!" I walked up to Ethan and wrapped my arms around his waist, pulling him into a quick hug. He was always the nicer one when they were younger, I could tell he was still a sweetheart. "Seriously thank you so much, I'm so excited to sleep!" I became extremely happy knowing I could catch some z's while Ethan drove.

Unlike Ethan, Jaxon asked Grayson to drive his half of the way there first. I felt so so so bad for keeping him up, especially now. Grayson couldn't just say, 'oh sorry Jaxon, I actually was up all night cuddling up to your sister,' he couldn't really say anything.

We were about to get going but stopped at the gas station to put gas in the truck and top off the tank in my jeep. I had a pretty new Jeep Wrangler, I got it as my 18th birthday from my parents. It's the car I had always wanted, and its going to be perfect for beach cruising in Cali. I was really getting excited and amped up to be in my new home. I kept think about it and couldn't stop.

Ethan and Jaxon went inside to pay for gas and get some snacks for the road. I didn't see Grayson though he must still be in the truck. I was tempted to go check what he was up to, but decided I would just wait in the car.

We still had the top up on the Jeep, if I were to get any sleep I knew I would need complete warmth and obviously should avoid extreme wind. I had my window cracked, it was a little cold out, looked like it might rain today. I heard someone bickering on the phone, I looked up and saw Grayson on the phone, he looked like he was fighting with someone. I don't think he realized I could hear him.

"Its not a big deal, you're over reacting, its Jaxon's baby sister, I could never do that to him," he was almost yelling into the phone. Who could he be talking to, and talking about me? "baby, come on, I promise nothing is going to happen!!" baby? Did he just say Baby?

Does Grayson have a gf? I thought he might feel the way I feel about him, I never even thought he might have a girlfriend. How did this never come up, especially last night, we were basically wrapped in each others arms all night. Maybe I just thought it was more than it was. Maybe Gray only saw me as a little sister, but it felt like so much more. I felt a little crushed. A little heartbroken.

He hung up the phone and looked up from it, and of course saw me starring at him! Why am I always so obvious? Jeez I really need to get it together. I didn't even look away I just kept looking in to his eyes as he walked over to the window of my door. Why was he walking over here? Maybe he knew I was listening.

I rolled the window down the rest of the way as he made his way to it, that way he couldn't tell it was a little rolled down before.

"Ready for this long drive?" he asked me giving me a small smirk, its like he completely forgot what had just happened on the phone.