Secrets

Chapter 9

Sorry for not updating but I was traveling and I only got home three days ago and it's been quite busy around here so yeah! Did I mention school started? I HATE SCHOOL OMFG IT'S BASICALLY PRISON OMFG WHAT DID I DO WRONG?!! *sigh* sorry BAI. -Sarina

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I woke up to the beautiful sound of birds chirping and Niall's calming heartbeat. I slowly got up and walked downstairs to eat, I was starving. Before I could walk to the kitchen I found aunt Kelly on the floor sobbing her eyes out. What was going on? I ran over to her and knelt down. "What's going on? Are you okay?" I asked as aunt Kelly looked at me with her red eyes, it looked like she had been crying for hours. "Sweetie...it's your mother. The nurse called and said she died at midnight last night." She whispered, wiping a few tears. My heart stopped, I could barely breathe and my heart felt like someone scratched it a million times. She's gone. She's gone. The words repeated in my mind as I fell on the floor, crying uncontrollably. Niall must've heard because he ran downstairs, looking at me in awe. "What's wrong? Are you alright?" Niall panicked, placing his hand on mine. No words came out of my mouth, I tried to speak but couldn't make anything out. "S-SH-SHES GONE!" I screamed, Niall trying to hold me in a embrace but I pushed him off. What was the point in living? I had nothing to live for anymore, my mom, my dad, josh, they're all gone. I don't deserve to live, I should have been to one to die, mother didn't deserve it.

I couldn't handle all the tension and ran out of the house. I could hear Niall trying to catch up but I continued running, I knew this place, and he didn't. I ran into the woods I used to hide in when I was a teenager. Once I had lost him I went near the tree house Louis and I had created when we were younger. I just say by the tree, sobbing my eyes out. What am I supposed to do now? What am I going to tell Louis? I can't just leave aunt Kelly all alone, and go back to New York. I also can't stay here, I have a job I want to keep. I felt so stressed, confused, and in pain. I heard footsteps, and saw a figure of a male walking towards me, how did Niall find me? He walked over next to me and slowly sat next to me. "I'm all alone now." I whispered, looking into his soft blue eyes that looked gentler than usual. "You're never alone, ill always be there for you." He whispered back. Those words shook me. Ill always be there. I looked at him once more before standing up as he did the same. I didn't deserve all this kindness from him, he has the right to treat me like trash.

When we got home I started packing all my clothing, I didn't want to stay for the funeral, I can't bare to stay here anymore. Ohio is an haunting place for me nowadays. It seems like everyone I care about and love just disappears, leaving me in the darkness. I wanted to get out of Akron as soon as possible, even though I felt extremely bad for aunt Kelly. Once everything was packed aunt Kelly slowly walked in, taking a seat next to me on the bed. "I understand your decision." She whispered with a light smile. I tried my best not to cry, not to break down in front of her. "Thanks, I don't think I can come back for a while." I replied, as she nodded. Then Niall walked in, taking a seat on my computer chair. "The plane leaves in two hours, ready?" He said with a smile, somehow making me feel a little better. I nodded and pulled aunt Kelly in for a tight hug. After saying our goodbyes we got in the taxi that Niall had called and drove to the airport.

Once everything was done we finally got on the plane. I was watching a drama movie while Niall listened to music. I was trying my best not to cry in front of him, I was trying really hard not to break down in front of all these people. I'm just glad I'm not alone as we go back to New York.