Secrets

Chapter 37

Just finished writing "Then Came Harry" and the more reads I get, the faster I'll publish it :) this chapter is dedicated to CL1DAGED thank you so much for all your support I appreciate all my readers and love you guys all very much. Don't be shy to talk to me, trust me I'll answer :) my Instagram is sarina_pink and my kik is sarina3740 :D -Sarina

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I woke up in the morning with a severe head ache, unsure of what I should do. Niall was already at work and I promised him I would take the day off so I did.

I knew I had to call aunt Kelly and dad sooner or later, but I'd much more prefer later than sooner.

I looked through the cabinets in the kitchen and found some Advil, and quickly took three pills without water. I was desperate to get rid of this head ache as soon as possible. Before I could do anything else I heard a knock on the door and walked over to answer it. The door opened to reveal Julie. "Hey." I mumbled as I took a seat on the couch. "What are you doing here?" She asked, a little confused.

I completely forgot how we haven't told anyone but Louis about the move. "Oh I moved in a week ago." I said, trying to smile but failed miserably. "Oh that's cool." She said, thankfully not noticing the fact I'm trying extremely hard not to cry. I feel like I want to die, I'm so worthless in this world. I want to go somewhere else, somewhere I will be happy and won't have to go through pain ever again. I'm all alone in this world. I only have Niall and Louis but soon they will be taken from me too, then I'll have no one left, and that little piece of sanity I have left will be gone.

I want to die, I don't want to be here anymore. My mind kept repeating the same sentence over and over again. I was too lost in my own thoughts to pay attention to what Julie was talking about. "Get out." I blurted out, face palming my self. "What?" Julie asked, with a confused expression. "I'm tired Julie, you need to leave." I said, a little more confident this time. "What's wrong?" She asked, getting me angrier and angrier. "Did you not hear me clearly? I need space, get the fuck out." I said, raising my voice a little. "I don't know what the fuck is up with you but you need help. I'm just trying to hang out with my so called friend." She says back, picking up her things and leaving. I honestly don't care anymore, I'm used to people leaving me.

I still can't believe it will be Christmas in two days, and it hasn't even snowed in this cold weather.

I have always had fond memories of Christmas. I remember when I was sixteen and had started my first job to help my mother out, and returned home to see all of my friends in the living room. My mother threw me a huge Christmas money, knowing I wouldn't even celebrate with all the work I had.

Tears strolled down my cheeks as I remembered those happy days. I wiped away a tear when I noticed Niall had walked inside. "Does it ever amaze you how time passes by so fast?" I whisper, looking down the window. "Maria? Are you okay?" He asked, walking next to me by the giant class windows. "Just a few months ago I had a mom. I had a family ten years ago; a happy one." I continued on, facing him and his mesmerizing eyes. "Maria, you have me now." He whispered, giving me a kiss on the lips. "I'm going to buy us a Christmas tree later." I said, walking away from him and getting my coat. "I'll come with you." He offered and I nodded.

I can feel Niall and I drifting apart again, and I feel like it's for good this time.

Once we got to the crafting store we walked inside the warm shop, looking through all the different types of trees and all the different sizes. "I like this one." I said, pointing to a medium sized tree. "Me too, now let's pick out some accessories for it, yeah?" He offered as I nodded silently.

We picked out some accessories and bought the tree, telling the grocer to deliver it to the apartment by tomorrow. When we walked out of the shop the cold breeze hit us, and I soon noticed it was snowing for the first time this year.

"It's too cold for you here."

I remembered the song lyric from "sweater weather". "It's snowing." I whispered, looking around the busy New York streets. "Yeah, it is." Niall said, sounding a little confused as to why I cared so much. "My mother said that if i ever found a shooting star on the first snow day of the year, it would come true. Ever since she died I've been waiting for it to snow; so I can wish to be happy again." I said with a smile, getting inside the car. Niall was silent for a moment. "You're mother seems like she was a very wise woman." He said with a smile. "She was." I whispered as we drove home, back to the apartment.

Once we got inside I decided that it was time to call my dad, so I walked inside the bedroom while Niall was taking a nap and silently dialed his number. "Hello?" I said, chewing on my finger nail as I waited for him to respond. "Hey Maria, you haven't called in a long time." My dad said in a calmly manner. I hate him so much. Hatred is the only emotion I feel towards him at the moment besides disgust and betrayal. "You need to leave aunt Kelly alone do you understand? She doesn't need your money anymore and don't you dare threaten her ever again. I know about the lies and the reason you left so don't you dare fucking lie to me. How dare you? How dare you make a fool out of me? And leave my poor mom when she needed you! We needed you!" I said, raising my voice as the tears made their way down my cheek once again. "How do you think I felt? Your mom was sick and I knew by the time she was diagnosed that it was over. You can't have a happy marriage; not when your wife has cancer, it doesn't work that way Maria. And if I hadn't paid Kelly, your mom and her would've lost their house, and everything else. Instead of thanking me she told me to stay away from you guys." He explained, hearing him try to explain made me even angrier. I wiped my tears away, he's not worth it. "You are sick, you are fucking sick. I told you once, and I'll tell you again, stay away from aunt Kelly and I. Don't try to contact us ever again, do you understand me?" I spoke in a harsh tone, trying to get my point across. "Suite yourself, I'll see your aunt Kelly in court for not paying back what she owes me." He says and hangs up.

I don't know how much aunt Kelly owes but it must be a lot if aunt Kelly has to go to court for it. This is terrible, and the only way to help is perhaps ask Niall for some money until I earn some from my own job.

"Niall I need your help." I said, walking into the living room and waking him up. It didn't feel right asking him for money but I had to save aunt Kelly, she's the one who was there for me when I needed someone. "Is something wrong?" Niall asked worriedly. "I need to borrow some money from you. Aunt Kelly will go to jail if she doesn't pay back my dad Niall. Please, I'm sorry and I'll pay you back as soon as possible, I promise." I begged, gently kissing his soft and tender lips. "You don't have to ask me Maria. We are in love and live together, what's mine is yours." He smiled, pulling me in for a make out session.

I love him so much, but I know he will leave me. He will get tired of my issues and get bored of me soon, I can feel him getting tired of me. It will be the death of me if he leaves, but I wouldn't stop him.