I closed my eyes feeling like I was betraying everything I stood for. I could hear millions of fans that were going to be heart broken in 2 hours and 46 minutes.
Mikey put a hand on my shoulder, "it's time Gee, you okay?" Mikey knew how I felt about this, I didn't like it, but it's not like I had a choice. After all, I didn't choose cancer.
He and the other guys walked out onto the dark stage, they started to play the G note on piano. I walked out slowly, singing as the fans cheered.
"When I was,
A young boy my father,
Took me into the city,
To see a marching band....."
I continued to sing and the crowd sang with me crying to the song and the fact that they knew this was the last concert My Chemical Romance would ever play.
I had to sit down most of the show, sometimes coughing up blood inbetween lyrics. We sang and sang until it was almost time for us to end. I had specifically chosen the last song, it seemed so fitting.
"Long ago, just like the hearse, you die to get in again we are so far from you
Burning on just like the match you strike to incinerate the lives of everyone you know
And what's the worst you take(worst you take) from every heart you break(heart you break)
And like the blade you stain(blade you stain) well I've been holding on tonight
What's the worst that I can say
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight
So long and goodnight
Came a time when every star fall brought you to tears again
We are the very hurt you sold
And what's the worst you take (worst you take) from every heart you break (heart you break) and like the blade you stain (blade you stain) well I've been holding on tonight
What's the worst that I can say
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight
So long and goodnight
And if you carry on this way
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight
So long and goodnight
Can you hear me?
Are you near me?
Can we pretend
To leave and than
We'll meet again
When both our cars collide
What's the worst that I can say
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight
So long and goodnight
And if you carry on this way
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight
So long and goodnight"
I finished the song letting a single tear slip from my eye. I looked down at the crowd, everyone was sobbing knowing our time was up.
Minutes later we were meeting our fans for the last time. We took pictures, signed shirts, gave them hugs, and kissed scars. It was all so emotional, everyone was crying, even Mikey.
I didn't want the band to end. I looked around at all the kids we helped with our music over the years, I felt like we were betraying them.
I know I said their strong enough to survive without us, but was I right? I mean I've kissed countless scars just within the last half hour and we still had a huge crowd.
It was my fault the band was breaking up, if only I could rid the cancer in my lungs! They deserve better, at least Mikey, Frank, and Ray will be there. They'll never leave my precious killjoys.
