Second Chances

Chapter Four

Amelia POV
(Earlier that day)

"Nobody understands nobody me here no one knows how I truly feel nobody knows who I really am inside and out except for Owen Hunt. He some how makes me feel safe the way he smiles lets me know everything is going to be okay and that he'll always be there for me. But that was up until I found him drunk in his trailer it's not like him and if you know me you'd know I'm a recovering alcoholic it's really hard for me to not be around him and the fact that I'm so in love with him it's driving me crazy when ever I look at him I go weak in the knees and I forget how to breath I begin to feel something more then butterflies in my stomach and the worst thing is  that I can't tell him I can't tell him that I'm crazy in love with him I can't tell him that every time I see I just want to hold him in my arms and never let go because every guy I have ever loved dies and I just can't do that to my self again no matter how much I fall for him I just wish Charlotte or Addison where here but I guess Since I'm beginning to trust Meredith and Maggie I guess I can talk to them about it Arizona has a lot on her plate right now and besides we'r having a girls dinner thing tonight I'll talk about it with them then

(That Night)

As we sit around the table eating I begin to feel nervous I'm afraid that Meredith will not like it that I'm falling for her best friends ex husband but to tell you the truth I don't really care what she thinks which is why I was really surprised when I told her she gave me this look like finally she said it and that's when Maggie said everybody knows I was like really Meredith said I should tell him how I felt I told her that I was scared and I am I'm scared of one of us getting hurt she told me he's strong and that I'm strong and that we can get through it together just and as I was about to say something Zola walks in and Mer does not look happy Maggie and Meredith exchange looks Maggie offers  to take her back to bed and when they leave Meredith walks over to me and asks Are you ok I tell her I'm fine and ask her why she told me because she has noticed that I have been eating a lot,getting tired easily, and that I've been moody she then asks my if could be pregnant I go over it in my head could she be right could I be pregnant I run upstairs to look at my calendar OMG I'm late Meredith runs out of the room saying "I'll go get a test for you" My heart is bounding to the extreme this can't happening not again I'm not going to give birth to a unicorn baby not after Ryan