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1000
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10
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How many calories do I take away from my meals until I'm skinny again
Five
Ten
Fifty
How about a hundred and fifty?
200
250
How many sit-ups until I feel pretty again?
How much weight do I lose?
How much fat do I cut off my skin?
How many calories can I eat a day so I don't die, but not gain weight again?
1
2
3
5
8
10
How many cuts on my skin 'till I can push that blade just a bit further in?
How much blood do I have to lose till I'm on that hospital bed?
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2
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How many days, how many months, or even years will it take till I'm dead?
How many hospital visits
And therapy appointments?
How many chats with my mom
And how many disappointed looks from my father?
How many desperate pleads from my friends to stop with my attention seeking?
And how much more could I take before I can't take it anymore?
Because its not just another cut, and its not just another day.
Its not one less calorie or 5 more sit-ups.
Its 1 day closer to the grave.
Its not attention seeking or even clouded judgement.
It's hoping to be happy again, to be perfect, confident, and proud.
Its one less disappointed look from your father,
And less sad looks from your mother.
Its one more proud person, if you just stop being this way.
100%
95%
83%
71%
59%
42%
30%
27%
15%
0%
One big fat FAIL on your grades at the end of the year.
One last disappointed look from your teachers and parents till you go to your death.
STOP
Be happy, never let them get to you, feel proud for being YOU.
I'm sorry you were disappointed, I'm sorry you were sad,
I'm sorry you had to keep on going that way.
Put on a smile, make YOU proud, do what you want, doesn't matter if they're displeased.
YOU ARE READING
Drowning In Sorrow- Poetry
Poetry*Trigger Warning* Suicide, cutting, depression, abuse, self harm, death etc. ~I didn't know happiness as well as I know sorrow ❤️ Stay strong ❤️
