Drowning In Sorrow- Poetry

My Happily Ever After

I forgot what beauty is like
Because all I see is the bloodshed and sadness in people's eyes.
And I can't sleep because nightmares haunt me every night
And I can't breath because I don't want to be alive
And I can't be happy because I forgot what smiling is really like.

And I can't be skinny or I'll be called an anorexic freak
But I can't be fat or calories will be the tears I shed every night before I fall asleep.
Tell me what's the madness inside of me,
And what's the war around me
Why is peace nonexistent if we all want to achieve the same dream.
Hope is cast in our hearts
Yet we lost faith in this very earth.
War leads to pain
And pain leads to suffering,
And with suffering comes a price to pay.
Don't you tell me I'll get my happily ever after when there are homeless people,
People starving in the streets,
With no money to feed.
Don't you tell me I'll get my happily ever after when people are fighting for power,
When there are mass murders over who has better beliefs.
Don't you dare tell me I'll get my happily ever after when leaders are fighting over who's gonna fire the first shot
And who's gonna win the war,
There will be no more winners
When this world disappears.
Don't tell me I'll get my happily ever after when we still hate because of our differences,
Our skin doesn't show what's beneath,
And our beliefs don't make us monsters
For believing in something great.
Because terrorism has no religion,
And I thought we fought for black lives before?
So why is there still war and protests over racial types.
This world has gone back a hundred years.
Don't tell me I'll get my happily ever after when I'm in love with both genders yet I can't kiss a girl on the street,
And I can't even tell my parents about the beautiful angel who sings me to sleep because they don't believe in love,
But damn how many times blood has dripped from my wrists but she couldn't save me
Because she couldn't be near me.

Don't tell me... Actually please tell me that I'll get my happily ever after because it's to see a world were everyone is at peace, and they can love whoever and can be whatever they please.