Drowning In Sorrow- Poetry

Can't Go Back

Her hands are shaky as she holds the pen tight.
She's finally letting go of all the sleepless nights.
She writes her suicide note and she can finally write goodbye.

I'm sorry I wasn't enough,
I'm sorry I couldn't be everything you wanted of me,
I'm sorry I couldn't make you proud,
I'm sorry you had to find out that I died long ago and reality finally caught up to everything that's been going on.

I'm sorry for everything I have done,
Im sorry for even saying sorry because sorry can't even begin to erase every little detail of what happened in my life.

I'm just really sorry it took me this long to finally kill myself.
Im sorry for every time I tried but always shut my mouth.

I couldn't tell the truth and I'm sorry for that too.

Goodbye I can finally say it its been long enough and its my time to explain it.
I'm sorry if you're sad you won't be for long,
I will be gone soon and so will everything thats happened all along.

She had finally said it,
It was her time to go,
It was time to leave this world alone.

She's dead and she can't go back her parents are in despair wishing she could be there.

Her sisters are all alone waiting for the day, death can take them for the ride that had taken her too.

Her friends are dying with each passing day,
Even the ones who never knew her, wish they had made a difference maybe then she never would've done something so saddening.

I wish she can see it now, I wish they could've shown her then.
How much they cared and how much they loved her
So much that it hurt them deeply.

So if you are ever in her place just look back
Look at all the moments were you can see a glimpse of love, because it's there she just never had the chance to see it for once.

I'm sorry she never got the chance to see the light, but I really hope you see it cause I don't want you to die the way she had so long ago.

It might be years later, but it still feels like yesterday when I held that note in my hand and held her body limb.

I can still see her pale face and all her mistakes written on every line.

I sat there tears pouring out as I stared at practically nothing
Wishing that it was all a dream and I can wake up hoping she's alive.