Craving Forgiveness

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When night fell Erik was still nowhere to be found.

You climbed into bed and stilly laid there waiting for him to enter at any moment.

You dozed off only to wake up a few hours later. Looking over at the clock that said 3:23 am you sighed and sat up to see where the noise was coming from.

"I'm so sorry my love. The president wanted to meet with me. I had no idea I would be there for so long." Erik said crawling into the bed beside you.

"He wanted to meet with you? Why?"

"A few reasons actually. He wanted to formally apologize for keeping me held in the pentagon for so long. He also wanted to thank me for looking after you he heard you were hospitalized recently. He was worried. And he heard I was apart of the team the saved his daughters and took down Zara." he yawned.

"Sounds like an eventful day."

"Very. I really am sorry for leaving so suddenly but he is the president. He's kind of hard to say no to."

"I understand. I'm glad thats why you left, i thought it was something else." you mumbled.

"Like what?" he asked looking at you.

"Nothing. I was just being silly."

He stayed silent for a second thinking before looking back at your hurt frame. "You thought I left because I regretted making love to you." He stated rather than asked.

You gave a single silent nod.

"Atarah. I dont regret a single second of that moment. It was as perfect as I imagined. You are perfect. And course I wouldn't wanna miss out on a chance to do it again."

He snaked his arm around your waist and pulled you into his chest. He kissed along your jaw line down to your neck before you pulled away.

"Well you should've been here." You smiled with satisfaction.

"How unfair of you." He pouted. "If you only knew how much I've thought about being with you. Even when I was on my mission."

Did he say mission?

"What mission Erik?" You asked.

He became flustered,"uhh did I say mission I meant ummm..."

"Erik. What mission?"'you sat up.

"Charles gave me a mission."

"So you lied."

"No. I didn't lie. I just didn't tell the whole truth." He sat up and ran his hand through his hair. "I did go see the president but I wasn't there for more than 3 hours."

The room stayed quiet and he took your hand," Say something my love."

"Is it dangerous?"

"Yes. It is."
"Then tell Charles you can't do it."

"Atarah. You don't understand-"

You pulled away from him," I don't understand?!? What am I stupid? Don't talk to me like I'm a child. I understand plenty. We just got engaged last night Erik! Or did you forget?"

You got out of the bed and walked downstairs for a drink.

You downed a glass of vodka before you heard Erik behind you.

"Atarah. Please come back to bed."

You put the glass down and turned to face him.
You walked past him before muttering goodnight and walked back up stairs.

You locked the door before getting into bed.

You heard the door knob jingle but you turned away to ignore the sound.

Stupid Erik with his stupid mutation and his stupid metal controlling.

You heard Erik faintly let out a sigh before the door jiggled again and he entered the room.
"Atarah. I can control metal I don't know why you thought locking me out would work."

You groaned," I figured you'd take a hint."

"Tell me to leave and I will leave."

"You know I can't do that Erik."

"But you want to."

"Yes Erik. I thought we promised to tell each other everything. You could've died today. Then what? What am I supposed to do without you? Go back to Alex? I only want you."

He took a step towards you before you held your hand up stopping him. "Goodnight Erik."

You climbed in bed facing away from the door and you heard it close and you slowly drifted back to sleep.

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"Charles!" You said angrily walking through the house until you got to his office.

The door opened and you stomped in.
"Atarah how are yo-"

"How could you send Erik on a dangerous mission?!! Are you trying to give me a heart attack?"

"I apologize Atarah that wasn't my intention." He calmly said.

"I just got him back Charles. I can't lose him."

"And you won't. Erik is very smart and good at what he does. That's why I sent him over anyone else. He knows what he is doing."

"And what if they're smarter and is better at what they do? Then what? Why didn't you at least send someone with him?"

"Everyone else is busy. Atarah. I'm sorry but it's important."

"Then let me go with him."

"Absolutely not."

You folded your arms defiantly," And why not?"

"Because it is a dangerous mission. You could get hurt. Your powers are only defensive not offensive. If you get attacked you can't fight. Besides, Erik would never allow it."

"I don't need his permission Charles."

"Oh I'm well aware Ms. Kennedy. But Erik is stubborn."

A smile crossed your lips," So am I."