Craving Forgiveness

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"Looks like you and Erik have been spending a lot of time together." Jean said at breakfast a few days later.

You tried to hide the growing smile on your face,"Yes. We have been spending more time together haven't we?"

"Don't play Atarah, you two have been inseparable." Raven added.

"Oh come on. It's not that bad?"

"I didn't see you at all the past 3 days." Jean said causing you to gasp in shock.

"Seriously?!?"

They both nodded silently.

"I can't help it. He makes me so happy I always want to be around him."

"I totally get it, but I'm sure you need your girl time. We miss you and Erik is being selfish keeping you from us." Raven said.

"Can you blame me?" Erik questioned strolling in. "Look at her. She's incredible." He kissed your forehead, grabbed a plate and sat down.

Raven crossed her arm," She should be able to spend time with us."

"Oh she's able. She just doesn't want to." You slapped Erik's arm at his words.

"I would love to hang out with you two." You smiled.

"Well just make sure you get her back here before 7 o'clock tonight. I'm taking her on a date."

"You are?" All three of you asked at the same time.

He gave a silent nod.

"Where are we going?" You asked
He stood up and looked down at you," It's so cute that you think I would tell you. Wear something amazing as usual." He kissed your nose and walked away.

"So I say we go shopping." Raven suggested.

"Ooh we could get you something to wear tonight. Something that will make Erik's jaw drop." Jean contributed.

You walked in and out of many stores you tried on a few dresses. Nothing made you excited to show Erik.

You walked into a shop just as you were about to give up when you saw a stunning dress on a mannequin.

The dress was a pale pink color it had a plunging V neck and straps crossed over the open area.

It was long sleeved, tight fitting and stopped right above the knee.

You rushed over to it and grabbed it and ran to try it on.

"What do you guys think?" you asked stepping out of the dressing room.

Jean and Raven's jaws hit the floor.

"Is it good or bad?" you nervously questioned.

"You look incredible!" Raven smiled.

"Erik is gonna freak out." Jean added.

"So I should get it?"

"Yes!" they said simultaneously.

You stepped back into the dressing room to change back into your clothes.

You purchased the dress and then headed home.

"We actually got you something." Raven said anxiously.

"You did? You guys didn't have to do that, that's so sweet what is it?" you asked and Jean pulled you into your room.

They pulled a black box out of one of their bags and placed it on the bed silently.

You looked at them confused at their lack of words.

You opened it to reveal a beige colored set of lingerie.

You gasped in shock"Ummmmm..."

"I thought maybe Erik would like to see you in it." Raven suggested.

You sat on the bed, "Erik hasn't even seen me half naked and now you want me to wear this for him?"

"You and Erik haven't you know..?"

"No Raven we haven't."

"Do you want to?"

You sighed, "Well yeah but I haven't even had a date before Alex and i definitely didn't have a boyfriend. I dont have much experience with guys and well i'm....stillavirgin." you added biting your tongue. "

"Does Erik know?" Jean asked.

You shook your head, "No he doesn't i'm scared he wont want to be with me if he knows."

"That's silly Atarah. Erik is crazy about you, it wont matter if you're a virgin or not. Im sure he would love to be with you."

"You think so Jean?"

She nodded.

"I just dont know how to approach this situation. Do I tell him or do I wait?"

"I dont know. Do whatever you want but make sure you do it because you want to not because he wants you to. It's your body Atarah. If you wanna wait then there's no rush."

You smiled and nodded. "You guys are the best."

"We know," Raven said smiling," Now get ready."

You hopped into the shower and quickly washed off.

You had every intent of looking your absolute best.

You curled your hair and fluffed it out to give it more volume.

You lightly applied some makeup before sliding into the lingerie and your dress. You paired it with some beige heels and a matching purse.

You looked over at yourself in the mirror and smiled.

'Damn I look good.' you thought.

You headed downstairs to look for Erik.

Everyone was standing around in the foyer like you were going to prom.

As soon as they heard your heels click on the floor everyone looked up at you in awe.

Once you reached the bottom Erik came beside you, he kissed your cheek. "You look ravishing." he whispered seductively in your ear.

You lightly slapped his arm, "Behave." you whispered back.

"Hubba hubba." Raven said causing you all to laugh.

Everyone expressed how incredible you looked before Erik's selfishness took over and he rushed you out of the house.

He drove to the restaurant with one hand in yours.

You had to constantly scold him from taking his eyes off the road to stare at you.

Erik was a perfect gentleman, he opened doors for you and pulled your chair out for you.

"Atarah, I love you so much my perfect angel." he said as you two were waiting for your desert.

He then unexpectedly pushed out his chair and got on one knee.

Your eyes almost popped out of your head, "Erik...what are you doing?"