Craving Forgiveness

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You sat by Erik's side constantly.

Hours turned into days which turned into weeks then turned into months.

Erik was still in a coma with no sign of waking up.

You still stayed by his side. You would only get up to go to the bathroom.

The others took turns bringing you food and forcing you to eat.

You looked at Erik's seemingly lifeless body. His eyes closed, hair messy, he was pale and thin. Your heart lurched at his appearance.

The heart monitor beeped signaling his still beating heart.

There was a knock at the door and a doctor entered.

"Hello Ms. Kennedy." He said looking at you.

"Hello Dr. Goldwyn."

"I came to check on Erik but it seems that I should be checking on you. You've lost a significant amount of weight and your eyes are sunken with sleep deprivation. You need to go home. Get some rest."

You shook your head,"I'm fine."

"Ms. Kennedy. I can have you admitted. I don't want to but I can and I probably should."

"I'm fine. I feel fine. Please do not admit me. I don't want to be away from him." You looked back down at Erik and squeezed his hand.

Dr. Goldwyn sighed."Alright but you need to eat and sleep. I will be back here in a week and if you don't look better I will have you admitted. Now on to Erik. There are no improvements in his condition. Waiting and hoping are the only things we can do now. I'm sorry."

You gave him a solid nod and he left and you directed your attention back to Erik.

You slid in the bed beside him and cuddled up to him and cried yourself to sleep.

Every time his finger or hand twitched you'd snap back awake but Erik would still look lifeless.

The door opened and Alex stepped in.

He gave you a sad smile.

"Hey."

"Hey." You replied with your eyes still on Erik.

"How is he?"

"The same."

"Oh."

The room stayed silent as the awkwardness of it set in.

"I was about to go get some lunch. Will you join me?"

You looked up at him," you know I can't."

"Atarah. You can. You just won't. Erik hasn't woken up in 4 months."

"And what if I go and he wakes up? He'll feel alone."

"Charles and Hank agreed to stay here while we go."

You looked back at Erik with furrowed brows.

"I can't." You said as you shook your head.

"I talked to the doctor. They're seriously thinking of having you admitted. The nurse saw you fall the other day on your way to the bathroom cause you were so weak. You're killing yourself. They're going to take you away from him if you don't get better. Please just come to lunch with me." He pleaded.

You sighed and took a deep breath. "Fine."

He gave a nod," I'll go get the guys and be back."

When they reentered Hanks eyes widened at the sight of you. "You look like hell."