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I hold Harry's arm tightly, the only thing keeping me up for the moment. My legs feel like jelly, I feel like my heart has been ripped out of my chest, like someone shoot my brain with a bazooka, like I've just been ran over by a truck. I felt like all my surroundings had disappeared, all the sounds and people had vanished, only leaving the view of my best friend betraying our friendship right in front of my eyes. All I could hear were my thoughts screaming, yelling, one and only word: LIAR....LIAR....LIAR...LIAR...

How could she do that to me? How could she lie in my face like that? How can she take our friendship for granted? Why is a boy suddenly more important than what we have? That's why we made the 'Karl's List'. To prevent a boy or a relationship to come between us. 

If she told me she wanted to stop following the List and have a boyfriend, I would've agreed, I would've helped her out through it. I would've done everything to make her happy. But the fact that does this behind my back, without telling me, just disgust me. We are best friends, does it still actually matters to her?

I don't even know if I could look at her in the eyes after what I saw. She destroyed everything. She fucking ruined everything. She broke our friendship and the trust I had in her. I am so done with this, with all of this.

But why? Why would she do that? I don't get it. I don't fucking know what I've done wrong to deserve this. 

But wait, maybe she learned about what Harry and I have done and decided to do the same, as a revenge? Maybe she felt just like me when she realized that I almost broke the rules. But how could she know? Unless...

He told her. Or maybe told his dear friend Louis, who then said it to Carls. That's it. I understand know. The fucking dickhead holding me right now planned all of this. He must've been so embarrassed and angry that I kicked him out that night that he told his friend, making sure that Carla knows and then, break our friendship.

"Kim! Kim are you alright?" He lifts me up and I slowly turn around to look at him. I keep a blank face while he stares at me with a worried look. He was acting all innocent when I knew he was screaming in victory inside.

"You got what you wanted Harry. Are you happy?" I say quietly, almost whispering. I can't meet his eyes or I'll explode, so I keep my eyes on his nose.

"What?" His tone actually sounds confused, but I won't get fooled easily, not anymore. I push my self away from him and walk on the opposite side, towards the bus station. My legs are in control again as anger filled my veins, boiled my blood.

"Kim, wait! What are you talking about?" He runs after me and tries to hold my arm but I quickly move it away, crossing them on my chest.

"Leave me alone" I mumble, staring down at my feet. I finally arrive in front of the bus station and wait for a cab or a bus to arrive.

"What?" He steps in front of me, blocking the view. I bite my tongue and stay quiet. The next bus should arrive sooner or later. From the corner of my eyes, I can see we're catching the people's attention.

"Kim, talk to me. I'm confused as fuck right now, what the hell happened back there?!" He says, his voice getting an inch louder.

"I said leave me the fuck alone." I yell the last words, finally meeting his eyes. He looks taken aback by my words, but I know he's acting. The students around us start to form a circle and I suddenly regret being popular for a split second, sometimes not being noticed by strangers can be nice, especially in this situation.