I pull away from the kiss, mouth open and eyebrows raised. He stares into my eyes with confusion, his lips still parted like he was about to kiss me.
"What do you think you're doing?" I ask and push myself away even more. I'm not mad, just confused and surprised by what he did. I thought he agreed to stay friends and him kissing me just doesn't make sens.
"I...I thought that you..."
"No Harry, That's not going to happen" I let a small laugh escape my lips and lift myself up from my couch. I know I said that I didn't want to follow the List anymore and that I wanted to be "rebellious" or something like that, but kissing or having sex with Harry isn't part of my plan.
Well, it's not like I have a plan, it's just that I don't want to create any awkwardness between us and he's my friend, not with benefits. And if he's planning on being a friend with benefits, he better be prepared to have his arse kicked really hard.
Friend are friends. You do not have sex with friends. If you do, then you're not friends, but a couple or some shit like that. Friends with benefits always end up bad and I don't want any other complication in my life right now.
So I stand up and reach for the remote before sitting back on the couch. He still hasn't moved, his face showing different emotions at the same time. Confusion, anger, humiliation, disapointment, sadness?
I don't know and I don't really care. If he planned to come here to have a little session with Doctor Lane, then he can go back to where he's from because it's not going to happen.
"You...Aren't you angry at me?" He asks, nervously playing with his fingers. I smirk and unfocus myself from the telly to look at him.
"Nope."
"Why?"
"Because you wanted to help somehow and I can't be mad at you for that."
"Oh.." He looks away and I stare back at the television, placing my feet on the coffee table. We stay silent for a while before he clears his voice.
"But do want to? I mean, like, have sex with me?" I snap my head to look at him, one eyebrow raised. Was he really asking me that?
The answer is pretty evident for me. Yes, I do want to have sex with him because he's sexy and knows how to do it correctly. But I can't, because I've known this guys for, like, two days and we're suppose to be friends, and like I said earlier, I don't do fuck friends.
"Do you?" I ask, turning the tables. His cheeks turn a light shade of pink and I smile to myself.
"If I answer positevely, is it going to make me look desperate?"
"Yes."
"Then no" He answers right away and I can't stop myself from laughing at his worried expression. He's so cute, trying to hide his embarrassment and all. It sure hit his pride but it just makes me like him more as a person.
"I like you" I state when I stop laughing and I see relief flash in his eyes while he lets out awkward laughs.
"Really?" I can sens the hope in his tone and I nod before wrapping and arm around his shoulder and ruffling his hair.
"Heeyy not the hair!" He complains, only making me laugh louder. I release my grip and he runs a hand through his hair to carefully replace it back to its earlier quiff. I roll my eyes and change the channel.
"Do you want something to eat?" He shakes his head and stands up.
"I gotta go clean my flat and kick everyone out" He chuckles and walks over to the front door. "See you tomorrow?"
"Erhhm yeah! Can you drive me?" I ask, Carla and I still didn't have a car and we desperatly needed it, so I hope Harry could give me a ride.
"Yeah, I'll come by your flat to pick you up then we'll leave. At 9?"
"Thanks and yes, nine would be perfect! See you tomorrow Harry!" I shout from my seat and he yells a 'goodbye' then I hear the door open and close.
I focus back on whatever emission was playing and rethink of all the earlier events.
One thing for sure, Carla and I need to have a good conversation about all of this, and soon.
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Sorry guys, I know it's short but it's just a filler and I'll write a longer one on friday night, promise :)
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