Ad Infinitum

Chapter 41

©mugiichan, 2016

Turning Point

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"Out!" I glared unto Thaddeus' eyes as he tries to get inside my pad. Isasara ko na sana ang pinto ko nang pingilan nya ako. He constantly pushes himself to get into my home. "I said, you are not allowed in here. So, out Mr. Avana."

"Sweet, don't be like this. I told you already why Margaux-"

"Ah! I don't want to see you nor hear your explanation again." I snort, raising my right hand halfway. Her name irritates me! "I had enough of your explanations!"

"Hey, I thought we are fine now?" He breathes. In your face! Porket naglunch date tayo kanina, ibig sabihin okay na tayo! Do you think what happend earlier was fine, Thaddeus? Do you, really? "Saab, don't be like this." Pagmamakaawa niya sa'kin. It's not usual that he is like this, he's not a person who pleads. He's a man of a strong decisions and wisdom. Kung ano ang mga desisyon niya, pinapanindigan niya.

"You can't just tell me what should I do and what should I don't." I raised my eyebrows, looking at him. "So please, not now Thad." He put his hand away from the wooden door at sinara ko na ang pinto. I sighed as I leaned my back on the wooden door. tears starts unknowingly to fall down from my eyes. Although I was strong enough to handle the situation I, Thad and that bitch have, somehow, that incident also slowly crumbles the sh-t out off me. Of all the men in the world, why it should be him, Margaux? Tapos na kayo, hindi ba? Tapos na kayo! Bakit ka ba nakikisiksik sa buhay niya?! Bakit? I whimpered. I wanted to shout, to get rid of my anger but I can't seem to do it. Saab, don't sulk again. For heaven's sake!

She can flirt, love and make out with any handsome, great man, for all I care! She's a beauty, but can't she just find another man who's not taken? I know Margaux was the first love of Thaddeus; of course, she wanted to make their relationship work for the second time. Women deserve second chances but at this point, although I'm now the new girlfriend of Thaddeus, I'm having a strange yet strong feeling that Margaux and Thad will come back together, sooner or later. Hindi naman 'yon mangyayari di'ba? Hindi babalik si Thad sa kanya. But why do I feel now that I'm just a lover for the mean time? Why now do I feel I became a second choice?

I mean, look at her, Margaux was the person whom Thaddeus first fell in love with. She had a relationship with him for a long time; they're high school sweethearts. She had been known by Thad's family for a long time too. Who am I kidding? My relationship right now with Thaddeus is just nothing compared with Margaux's. I don't want to think anything about her, but it bugs me a lot. Now, it haunts me.

I'm sorry for being like this, love. Hindi ikaw ang may problema. Ako.

Ako ang may problema.

"Now explain." I mumbled in a cold tone as the waiter places our ordered food. I started to eat my bacon caesar salad.

"I was sedated." He mumbles quietly but with a firm voice; not even touching his food. "I was out of my sanity."

"W-what?" I stopped eating.

"I said, I was sedated. I was unaware of my surroundings. I didn't even know that Margaux was there in front of me. The moment I saw your sillouette, it brought me back to my sanity."

"Who did this? Why you didn't tell me?" I whimpered. "Why?"

"I'm fine, already." He smiled and reached for my hand and squeezed it lightly. "Let's just-