Soulmate Search // larry

Important Update About Future Chapters

Hey guys. I checked my account recently and saw that I still had a few readers on this story all these years later, which really surprised me in the best way. I figure I owe you all an explanation as to why I disappeared and whether or not I will finish this story.

I started writing Soulmate Search when I was 15 years old, and I'm 21 now. It feels like so long ago when it has really only been almost 6 years. The summer of 2015, I started taking depression medication and it changed my life entirely. The problem was that, while I was becoming a happier person, I was also struggling creatively. I did some research and found that lack of creativity after starting depression medication is more common than I thought, that it wasn't just me experiencing this.

I miss it so much. I have had writer's block now for 5 years. I have written since then, and am currently an English major at college, but it has never been like before. I used to have ideas in my head constantly, I would scribble down ideas and passages during my classes, write chapters when I didn't feel like doing my homework. I could sit down and write 2,000 words in 2 hours. The last time I wrote a short story for my class it took me weeks and it wasn't even 1,500 words. Words used to flow out of me, I had a style I loved. I've lost that style and the easiness of those words. While I'm grateful every day for the joy the medication has brought back into my life, I ache for the old days when writing was second nature.

That is why I stopped updating this story. I was struggling to find the words. It was just so difficult and I eventually gave up. My sisters have been prodding me now and then to finish Soulmate Search, and I truly want to, but the ideas have run cold. I am also worried that since it has been so long that I may have lost the characters' voices.

Over the years, I have become better at plotting, storylines, grammar, and content. My writing in itself has definitely matured. If I were to rewrite this story, there would be a lot of changes to be made, especially H and L meeting in the first chapter and H only going one place before finding his soulmate. On the other hand, this story is very nostalgic to me now.

So I am not going to rewrite entirely. I am, however, going to try and finally finish the story. I ended up deferring the start of my senior year until the spring and am working part time instead, so I have more time (hopefully) to do some writing. Perhaps after this is over I will write other stories on here. Maybe I won't. I don't know.

I know 2020 has been a bit of a rough year for everyone, and I hope you all are hanging in there. I doubt I have many of my original readers left, or really very many readers at all, but I appreciate every single person who has read and supported Soulmate Search and me. I hope to be able to give this story the ending it deserves.

Thanks for sticking by me.

Cate