Letting Go (Niall Horan AU)

Chapter 2

As I walk down the halls of LSU knowing the only reason my parents allowed this is because I got a full scholarship, I find my way to my new dorm room 26B. I knock and wait with my many bags and wait for my room mate to open it.

A red head with a cheery smile opens the door.
"Ello you must be October! I can't believe I'm finally getting a room mate!"
She cheers as she hug me making me drop my bags.
"Uh hey..."
I mumble, my long brown hair and her curly red hair both in my mouth.
"Okay so here's the key, and I tried to tidy up before you came." She beams and helps me bring my bags in the decent sized room.

I walk over to my bed and plop down and look around and the red head attempts to make her bed.

"I'm Jenna by the way." She smiles over.
I passively nod and start to unpack.

"October is such a pretty name! I'm so jealous; ugh I'm just plain old Jenna."
She stops and helps me.
"You can call me Toby." I say.
"Sure."

"So Toby.... "
Jenna says testing out the new name.
"Tomorrow night my friend is throwing a party at the frat house, and if you came I could introduce you to all my friends and it'd be tons of fun. Wanna come?"
She rambles out. A friendly one she is. Are all Brits this cheery and friendly?

"Uh... Okay?"
I say without thinking.
"Yay!"
The squeals.
"I can already tell we'll be good friends."
She smiles.

Alright then....
She's so innocent and happy for an 18 year old girl.

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The next day I wake up to find Jenna still asleep across the room.
I quietly collect my stuff and make my way to the showers.

When I finally find them I force myself to step behind a curtain and start showing with other people a curtain away naked. It's strange. I start to shave my legs and start thinking about my other razors immediately. I look down at the many scars on my hips and right wrist.

I usually have bracelets on my right wrist but I take them off in the shower. I want to cut. Now. Looking down at my disgusting body. I'm fat. I'm ugly. I sift through the stuff I brought and find my razor. I scratch NO into my wrist. I make ugly lines on my hips. I deserve this. I need this. I get a sick thrill from it. It doesn't even hurt anymore. Now it's just a release of all my sadness.

The blood pouring from my body are my tears and memories. When I cut I let go of everything. I focus on the water hitting my back and the warm blood spilling from my wrists.

I grab a black wash cloth and stop the blood. After I finish scrubbing my body and make my way back to my dorm room.

Hours later I'm finished moving in and putting up my collage of posters and pictures on my side if the room.

I check my phone and realize its 1:00 and I still haven't eaten. Good. I don't need to eat. But against my better judgement I decide to go find a coffee shop. I slip on a sweater and leave on my quest for caffeine.

I soon find myself at The Nook. A small warm coffee shop a block away from campus. I order a Carmel Latte and sit in a cozy chair with Pride and Prejudice, one of my many favorite books.

As I sip and read about mr.Darcy, I hear a deep accent ask me
"Is this seat taken?"
I look up to meet a brown curly haired boy with green eyes.
"Nope." I reply.

He smiles and sits down next to me.
"You're from America correct?"
He asks with a grin.
"Yup. It's my first day at LSU."
I smile.
He smiles wider "I go to LSU also. My second year. Are you liking it so far?"
He asks.
"I guess. My room mates a little perky, oh well at least she's nice."

"Well me and my friends are throwing a party at the frat house tonight, maybe I could introduce you to less 'perky' people there?"
He asks sipping his coffee.

"Oh ya Jenna already invited me... Uh when does it start?"

"Whenever people wanna show up."
He shrugs.

"Okay Ill see you there then." I smile and check my phone.
"I should be getting back."
I state.
"Oh alright. Wait first let me give you my number."
He takes my phone.
"I never caught your name?"

"It's Harry. Harry Styles."
"I'm October Maine. You can call me Toby."
I reply and shake his hand as he hands me back my phone.
"I'll see you later Toby."
He laughs and gives me a smile as I walk back to the campus.

Aahhhhhh okay so this is the second chapter so don't worry niall will be in the next one :) thank you for the whole 0 reads and votes. I appreciate it :) - Tris