Niall
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I wake up with a pretty bad headache, though not quite as bad as I was expecting. I was also not expecting to make up in my own bed. Even more unexpected was finding a brown curly head lying on my chest.
Oh fuck. Was all I could think as I unwrapped my arms from around Harry. I laid there un moving not knowing what to do. That's when I realize I'm fucking naked and remember all of last night.
Every word we said to each other comes rushing back to me and I grab my head as It starts throbbing. I fucked up again. What a surprise.
What am I gonna tell October? What am I gonna tell Harry? How am I gonna get Harry off of me? These thoughts run through my head as I start recalling more and more of last night. The partying, the body shots, the sex I had with Harry Styles. What am I gonna do?
I try to relax and think of a way to fix this. I stare down at Harry's sleeping face. I find myself running my fingers through his knotted hair. The action is so familiar to me and I can't seem to stop. Just then Harry's eyes flutter open and look around before realizing where he is and why.
"Sorry." He says quickly rolling off of me.
"S' okay." I reply looking over at him.
There's an awkward silence that lasts for what seems like forever before I speak again.
"I remember everything from last night." I say calmly.
"Really?" Harry asks timidly. He furrows his eyebrows together like he often does, then looks down at his little black circle tattoo on his wrist.
"Everything?"
"Yes." I reply, looking down at my own sun tattoo.
"So do you hate me?" He asks looking up into my eyes trying to decipher my thoughts.
"No."
"You probably should, but I'm relieved you don't." Harry answers quietly casting his eyes down again.
"I guess I should, but it's not like you forced me to have sex with you. I wanted to." I admit shamefully.
"You were drunk don't blame yourself, you didn't know what you were doing."
"Yes, I was drunk but I still knew what I was getting myself into and I let it happen." I answer.
He looks up at me with a puzzled expression.
"You know what I do hate though?" I ask with a humorless laugh.
"What?" He asks his green eyes searching mine.
"That I don't regret it. Not a single thing, even though I love October." I answer truthfully.
"Y-you don't?" Harry asks.
"Nope. I don't regret it because it was sort of a goodbye to you I guess."
Harry nods.
"We have odd ways of saying goodbye don't we?" He laughs.
"We really do Haz." I agree.
"So this is it?"
"I think so."
"Okay."
"I'm sorry, it has to happen."
"I understand Ni. You love October and my chance is over."
"I'm afraid so Harry. I really do wish it could've worked out differently. I'll miss you." I say.
"Me too. You know we can still be friends right?" Harry asks.
"I suppose... But I'd rather not be alone with you again no offense, it's just I don't want something like this to happen again. I don't like being unfaithful to October."
"That's okay, I wouldn't want you to anyways. October deserves to be treated respectfully."
"She does." I agree.
Harry then leans his head on my bare shoulder.
"I can't believe I'm actually losing you."
He whispers.
"Me either. But it's time to let me go."
"I know." He replies.
I look down at our intertwined fingers for a moment before lifting them up to kiss the top of his hand. Harry then, rolls over so he's leaning over me.
He looks me in the eyes and smiles before kissing me gently on the cheek.
"Goodbye Ni." He whispers.
I run my fingers through his hair one last time before answering.
"Goodbye Haz." I whisper back.
He then gets up and dresses quickly before walking towards my door. He opens it and I watch as he leaves.
Hey sorry it was more of a filler and it was short. Well the last chapter only had 5 votes so you should consider yourself lucky. Anyways I'm starting a new Narry fan fiction soon, and I'll tell you when it's posted. Vote please THANK YOU :)
- tris
