Letting Go (Niall Horan AU)

Chapter 25

October

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Niall was being really sweet the whole drive to the frat house.

He held my hand and didn't make fun of me. He even complimented me. He's been acting like this ever since Jenna walked in on us. And I like the sweet side of, even if it'll only last a short time.

Finally we make it up to his room and find Chance sleeping on Nialls bed.

"Get off ya wanker!" Nialls shouts at him and Chance jumps onto the ground.

I bend down to pet him.

"Niall he's just a puppy."

"So what? I don't want no fuckin dog hair on me bed." I grumbles and sits down on the edge.

Well that nice mood didn't last for long.

Niall pats his lap and I walk over and sit on it.

"Can we talk babe?" He asks quietly.

Oh god.

"Yeah?" I ask feeling anxious, and pulling on my sleeves.

"Are you okay?"

I laugh at the question.

"What do you mean?"

He looks at me his eyes wide.

"Are you okay?" He ask again.

I realize how serious he is about the question.

"Of course." I lie.

Niall

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"Of course." October lies.

"Why can't you trust me?" I ask.

"What do you mean?"

"Why can't you tell me when you're sad?"

She sighs and replies, "What are you talking about?"

She doesn't realize I saw all the cuts earlier. Down her hips, halfway hidden by her panties, a few on her stomach. When I first saw them I wanted to talk to her about it then. But I saw how pleasured she was and did not want to disturb that peace. Not yet. Cause right then I knew she was relieved of all the thoughts.

"October you don't have to hurt yourself. You can talk to me, when you want to. I'll be there, it doesn't matter what time it is, I'll come. I can help you." I plead.

She has now sunken down in between my legs, sitting on the floor. Chance walks over and licks her.

"Niall, I can't talk to you about it." She whispers.

"Why not?" I ask stroking her hair.

"Because. You wouldn't understand."

I sit down next to her now and gently as possible take her wrist and pull up the sleeve. It reveals a maze if red lines. I run my finger over them gently, wanting them to be rubbed away from my princess.

"Why not? I could try."

"No. Sometimes it's because of.....you." She whispers into my neck.

I stiffen. I caused this. I'm the reason she's hurting herself. It's all my fault. I slowly stand back up.

I try to show no emotion on my face.

"October."

"Yeah?" She sniffles. I almost lose it then.

"Get out."

"What?"

"Get out." I respond.

"But Niall, I don't want to leave."

"Well you have to. I can't be around you anymore."

"I promise I won't anymore!" She sobs into my neck.

She wraps her fragile arms around me and it takes energy thing in me not to hug her back. I don't want to let her go. Not ever, but i have to. I'm no good for her. I'm no good for anyone.

"October, I'm so sorry."

"Niall please, I'll do anything. I-I I can throw all of my blades away, I'll call you whenever I want to hurt myself, I'll be better." She cries.

"No. You don't have to change yourself. You're perfect just the way you are, just a bit broken. But someone can fix that. October, I can't stand being the one causing this. I can't do this to you. If anyone has to change, it's me. I'm broken too, Tober, but I'm the unfixable type."

She shakes her head and tears stream down her beautiful face.

"No. I can fix you. I know I can." She pleads.

Why does she have to be so damn difficult?

"No you ca-" I'm cut off by her lips crashing into mine. Her tongue is dominate and she pushes her feelings into the kiss. She, too soon, pulls away from me.

"Niall James Horan, I will fix you." She states. Then curls up into my bed.

What the fuck just happened?

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