Niall
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I sit next to October holding her hand as she sleeps on the bed in the hospital. I'd called her parents interrupting their 'date night' to come here. They'd shown up earlier but after about an hour of awkward silence as we watched October sleep they left me and her alone, but in sure they're still in the waiting room.
I watched her eyeballs move beneath her lids and her hand twitch. Her eyelashes fluttered and she opened her eyes with a gasp. She looked around worriedly until she saw my hand holding hers and realized where we were.
"W- what happened?" She asked. I know she was just hoping she somehow just woke up from a dream and it was all a nightmare. And I'm gonna have to be the one to crush that hope.
I just look up at her and shake my head.
"It wasn't a dream was it?" She asked as tears started rolling slowly down her cheeks.
"No." I answer quietly. "You passed out about 3 hours ago." I inform her as to why she is in this room.
She nods.
I have no idea how to deal with her tears and do not know if u should hug her at the moment or not.
But the door clicks open to reveal a doctor who smiles when he sees October
"Oh, Miss Maine, levels to see you awake. It seems a few hours ago you passed out due to just being overwhelmed." He said too cheerily for my liking.
"Y-yeah I know." She stutters and I think that's when the Doc finally gets the clue that she's not in the best state.
"Well, I'll just ask a few questions before you can go home alright?"
"Okay." She nods.
"Have you taken any medication that could possibly make fainting a regular occurrence?" He asks.
"No" she says flatly.
The doctor scribbles something on his clipboard.
"Have you been feeling light headed lately?"
"No."
"Are you currently in a state of disorientation?"
"Not really, I'm okay"
"When was the last time you were suddenly unconscious?" The doctor asked and I couldn't take it anymore.
"I'm about to make you suddenly unconscious in a second if you don't fucking let us leave." I growl.
He takes gulp looking at me before looking back at October.
"You may return home Miss Maine." He Said swiftly before rushing out of the room.
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October
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All I can think the entire car ride home is about Amber. She killed herself. She didn't even say goodbye to me. She left me here. All I can think of is how this is my fault. I should've been there for her. I should've called more often, asked how she was doing. I could've prevented this.
But I didn't.
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Niall
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I lie down with October as she sleeps in her small bed. While stroking her hair I notice the ever present frown on her lips. I lean down and kiss them gently. There are dry tears on her cheeks and I try to wipe them away.
When she wakes up she doesn't speak. Not to anyone. When we go down to eat dinner all she does is push her food around never taking a bite. She excuses herself and descends back towards her bedroom, and I follow.
I find her sitting in her bathroom on the floor.
"What're ya doing?" I ask.
She doesn't respond.
"Oh for fucks sake Tober! Answer me. Your scaring the shit out of everyone. Why won't you eat? Or talk? Or do anything?!" I almost yell exasperated and unknowing of how to deal with this situation.
She just stares up at me unblinking.
I sit down next to her on the cold tile and rest my head on her shoulder.
"I'm sorry babe, I know this is terrible for you right now, but you really need to eat." I speak.
I lift my head up and grab her hand pulling her upright with me.
"Do you wanna take a shower love?" I ask.
She gives a small nod and I grin at her small gesture.
"Okay." I agree and we both take off our clothes. I turn on the shower and when it's warm enough I motion for her to join me.
I pull her closer to the water and wipe the mascara and tears from her face. She doesn't respond to anything as I wash her.
She doesn't even seem phased by the fact that I'm naked right now and so is she. I reach for her arm to wash it and I stand there tracing the many faded lines of her scars.
I look down and see newer marks on her hips and notice a city skyline etched into her skin on her thigh. I trace over the lines with my finger. It's actually quite beautiful. It's so strange to me. How can something so painful and terrible be so beautiful at the same time?
I look up to find her finger tracing a tattoo I have on my hip bone. It's of an old style nail.
"I got that one to remind me that even when I feel broken there's something that can hold me together even it's it small."
She looks up at me with her big brown eyes. I lean down and press her hand firmly against my hip.
"Maybe you need to be reminded of that too."
Sorry it was short, but hey the last chapter didn't even get 6 votes u buttholes. Jk I love you guys even if you never vote. But srsly I really want this chapter to get ATLEAST 6 VOTES. Thank you for reading :) - Tris
