Letting Go (Niall Horan AU)

Chapter 9

October
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I spend all day preparing for my first day of collage. I reorganize my binder and make sure I have everything ready. I memorize my schedule and know where to find each class. And before I know it it's 5:00.

Shit! What am I gonna wear?!

I quickly run over to my closet. I find absolutely nothing.

I sigh. Great. I end up throwing on some random clothes and doing my make up quickly.

I look in the mirror one last time. Eh who cares it'll be hard to see me anyways. Works for me.

Just as I finish flattening my hair I get a text from Harry.

I'm waiting :)

I make sure I look halfway decent before I walk out into the hall.

K 1 sec :)

I text him back quickly.


When I make it to his car he gives me a cheeky smile and looks me up and down.

"You look nice." He winks.

I fake laugh.

"Sure."

"No really your stunning."

"Whatever." I roll my eyes knowing he's just being nice. Cause Harry is nice. Unlike Niall. Why can't Niall be nice? I need to stop thinking about him.

We make it to the club I step out and see Ari, Trish, Zayn, Colton, and of course Niall. Great.

They all smile and give me hugs when I walk up. They seem scary but really they're nice.

"Never thought you'd actually show!"
Zayn laughs as he puts his arm around me leading me inside.

When we walk in were immediately hit with the smell of alcohol and sweat. Everybody goes different ways. I end up walking over to the bar first.

"Shot please?"
I ask the man.

He slides one over and I tilt my head back letting it burn my throat as it goes down.

I have one more before I decide that's all I'll allow myself to have tonight.

I then walk over and start dancing.

It's ok to dance by yourself at clubs cause it's just one big pulsing crowd.

That's what I like about it. I don't need anyone. I move my body to the loud music and don't think. Just dance. I do this for a while before I have to pee. I make my way to the bathroom and when I'm done I start walking back to the dance floor.

I let myself have another shot. I mean if can't hurt right?

Okay one more.

Another.

Last one.

No really last one this time.

I tell myself. Soon enough everything is blurry and I wanna dance again.

I start to dance a little dirtier than before and then i feel someone behind me. I look up at the guy. I don't know him.

I try to walk away, but he grabs my arm and pulls me back so his lower region is once again touching my butt.

I push him away.

"Get your dick off me!"
I shout at him.

He just smiles. Oh god.

Then he then try's again to make me dance with him.

Oh hell no. I kick him in the crotch.

"Get.your.hands off of me." I growl.

He grabs me by my hair and pulls me to him face. No one notices as I wince in pain.

"I don't wanna dance with an ugly bitch like you anyways." He spits then drops me and walks away. I start to cry.

I walk around and try to find Harry so he can take me home. I can't find him anywhere. Soon enough I walk back over to the bar and find niall sitting alone on a stool beer in his hand. I guess he's my only choice.

I sigh and walk over.

"Uh niall?"

He looks up.

"Oh hey October." He replys.

"Uh... Can you drive me back to the college... I don't feel good."

He's gonna say no; I know it. Why did I even try.

"Sure." Her shrugs and stands up.

What.

I follow him out the door to his classic car.

I get in the car as he starts it and I just look out the window.

That guy was right anyways. I don't see why I'm crying.

I unwillingly let a tear fall. Ugh, no I will not cry here. Not in front of Niall.

He looks over. Great.

"Something wrong?" He asks.

"Nope." I shake my head.

"Don't lie to me."

"Nothing, just some guy was scaring me."

"What guy?" He asks his hands gripping the wheel tighter.

"I don't know, but he was pretty much sexually harassing me." I admit to him.

I can't look him in the eyes. So instead I play with my bracelets.

He suddenly stops the car.

"Why didn't you tell me before I would have beat the shit out of him." I snarls.

"It's not a big deal, really Niall. It doesn't matter." I say as I wipe away the never ending tears. Why. Can't. I. Stop.

"No it's not okay!" He yells. "Look at you you're crying!"
He says gesturing to me and punches the dash board hard making me jump.

"Why do you care?" I ask curiously.

He shakes his head, as if clearing it. His face hardens.

"I don't."
He says stiffly starting the car again and pulling back onto the road.

I start to cry a little harder. I look away and let the tears fall silently.

I try to wipe them away but they just keep coming. I wanna jump out if the car and just die now. I hate everything. Scratch that. I hate me.

After 20 horrible minutes we reach the parking lot. I step out of the car and start to walk away.

Then I hear Niall call my name.

"October!" He yells as he jogs up.

"Wait."

"What?" I ask bitterly.

"Because I like you."

"What?" I ask confused.

"I lied. I do care. Because I like you."

My heart is beating so fast I don't know what to do.

"Oh." I look up at him tears brimming my eyes again. He's lying. He has to be. He must've just felt bad for me cause I was crying.

He looks down at me with his beautiful blue eyes.

Then he does something I would've never guess he'd have done in a million years. He takes my face in him huge hands and kisses me. A soft brush. Almost not there. Light and meaningful.

Then we both open out eyes and he smiles at me. Something he's never once done around me before.

I don't know what to do. I stand there in shock.
He then furrows his brows.

"I'm sorry... I jus-"

"No don't be sorry." I cut him off.
"That was perfect."
I smile up at him. Then I stand on my tip toes and kiss him back. He leans down deepening the kiss. Then he slides his tongue into my mouth. We search each other's for a bit before we have to pull apart for air. He rests his forehead on my mine and whispers.
"You are amazing October."

Then walks back to his car and drives away.

I watch still trying to process what just happened.