Letting Go (Niall Horan AU)

Chapter 21

Harry
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It hurts seeing her with him. I'll admit it, I do like Toby a lot. A lot more than a friend. And I know that Niall is somehow gonna find a way to crush her.

I keep telling my self this, but it's getting harder and harder to believe.
Niall is actually decent most of the time, he hasn't been sleeping around since Toby, and now he has a fucking puppy.

Toby is changing him for the better I think, but I don't want to believe. Because once he realizes this he'll need her, more than he already does.

I've never been this jealous before. I've never wanted to be rude back to Niall before. I've never had the urge to pop him one in the jaw with his stupid grin before.

Maybe Toby is changing me too.

I shake away these thoughts and play my music in my bedroom.

I think instead of Toby, but of Niall.

He's been my friend, if you could call him that, for almost two years now, and had he ever been this nice to anyone?

Then it comes back to me. The time before the piercings and tatoo collection.

Yes. Niall did use to be nice. He used to laugh regularly, and play football, and sing.

Oh yes, Niall used to sing beautifully, I remember the time we sang in a local bar together.

But then everything got mixed up and confusing. We crash landed, and his contagious laughter ceased to be heard. He no longer played football. He stopped singing in the shower, he started drinking, and was even into drugs for a bit. He started coming back to the fraternity with a new girl every night. He changed.

And I did nothing to stop it.

I sat there and watched as my bestfriend slowly turned into a shell of a boy. He hurt himself and others around him.

And it was all my fault.

I ruined everything. Especially Niall Horan.

With these memories resurfacing I hurt. Badly. I got over him and everything almost a year ago. And now it's all coming back to haunt me.

It haunts me in his re-found smile. It haunts me in his laughter being heard from upstairs. It haunts me in the way his eyes shine brightly again, the way he once again blushes around Toby. He's turning back into my old Nialler, and I'm not ready for it.

Wait, no. Not mine. I can NOT think of him as mine again. Not after what happened two years ago. Not ever again.

I decide to distract myself from the past and my thoughts by blasting my music as loud as it could go. The bass shakes away all the thoughts that haunt me.

So some of you were wondering what my full name was.... It's Beatrice. Ew I know. Haha anyways vote and comment! :) - Tris