Letting Go (Niall Horan AU)

Chapter 32

Niall

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I sit in my room still staring at the ceiling in silence trying to figure out what I should do. I glance at the clock and see its 1:30. I've been staring at this god damned ceiling for the past 2 hours.

I hear a scratching at my door. I swing it open and when I'm about to knock some bloke out I find a whimpering Chance with his tail tucked between his legs.

I lift him up, shutting the door behind me, and bring him back to my bed with me.

I lie down and pet him while he whines.

"What'm I s'posed to do buddy?" I ask him.

He just nuzzles his face into the crook of my neck.

"Should I talk to her?" I ask another question, looking down at the puppy.

He licks my neck, and I take that as a yes.

October

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I lay in bed and pray that somehow a time machine will somehow appear in my room so I can take the kiss back.

I go over it again and again, and no matter how much I try I realize, that even though I do regret letting Harry kiss me, I did like it.

And I hate myself for that. Because it probably destroyed every bit of what me and Niall had, hell it probably ruined me and Harry's friendship too.

I decide now that if, ever, Niall decides to take me back, which is very unlikely, I will need to sort out my feelings.

I try to think about the possibilities of why I may have liked the kiss.

1: Harry is very sweet.

2: Harry is very good looking.

3: Harry is..... Harry.

Harry is just so wonderful and makes me happy. But so does Niall.

Maybe I only liked the kiss because I

Missed Niall and Harry was being very kind to me. Plus I was taking medication.

I come to the conclusion that I wasn't thinking clearly when I kissed Harry, just as my phone lights up with Nialls name flashing across the screen.

I pick it up and answer shakily.

"Hey."

"Hey." Niall replies.

"So I wanted to know your side of the story before....."

"You break up with me?" I croak.

"No I was going to say before I do anything drastic."

"Oh."

There's an awkward pause for a bit where all I hear is static.

"You still there?" I ask.

"Ya." Niall replies.

"Okay, well to explain why I was there; I was driving home and my car ran out of gas halfway through the neighbourhood, so I had to stay there."

"Couldn't Harry have driven you home, or you could've rode the bus." Nialls mumbles.

"Well, Harry's car was in the shop, and the buses only run until 5:00 on Friday nights." I answer.

"Oh."

I clear my throat and continue.

"So Harry went an-"

"Wait but your car was in the driveway when I got back." Niall interrupts.

"Harry got Zayn to help him get it back in the morning." I answer trying to be patient.

I hear Niall huff on the other end of the line, so I continue.

"Anyways, so Harry had to lend me his clothes because I was soaking wet, from walking back in the rain. After that my sickness got worse so he gave me some medicine, and we watched TV, then fell asleep. Then, in the morning h-"

"Did you fall asleep together?" Niall asks cutting me off.

"Erm.... Yes." I reply quietly.

Niall's breathing quickens on the other side and I rush on.

"Then, in the morning we ate breakfast, and watched Marley and Me, then I was making fun of him because he cried during the movie and one thing led to another, and we were kissing, then you walked in." I finish, catching my breath.

"That's all?" Niall asks. I can picture how me looks right now. Probably with a scowl on his face playing with his lip ring on the side on his mouth.

"I swear."

"Okay."

"I'm so sorry Niall." I whisper into the phone, my voice cracking as a tears runs down my cheek.

"I forgive you October. You've given me more than enough chances. You deserve some also." Niall says.

I sigh in relief.

"Thank god."

"Hey babe?" Niall asks.

"Yup?"

"You didn't uh.... hurt yourself did you?" He asks tentatively.

"No."

He releases a breath it sounds like he's been holding for a while.

"Okay I'll be over soon."

"You're coming over?"

"Yes. I deserve a good bit of me girlfriend after a day like today." Niall says his accent thick.

I smile at the word girlfriend.

"Okay. See you soon Ni."

"You too Tober." He replies hanging up.

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