Diary of A Broken Woman

Chapter 25

Dear Diary,

Yet again I've played my self. I've let another person blind me and tell me a mouth full of lies and I believe it. I've believed every word that has came out of his mouth just because I felt like I could trust him. He played as if he was this good guy and so trustworthy, but he wasn't. He was just like everyone else. Everyone else that has done me dirty. I'm so damn stupid.

Love,
   Miranda

I laid in my bed, staring up at the ceiling. I could feel the urge for me to cry, but I held it in. I won't lie and say I'm not hurt because I am and this was what I was trying to avoid from the very beginning. Not being hurt again. Not going through that back stabbing journey. I just feel like my heart has been stepped all over once again.

I can't believe I trusted him. I believed everything he fed me. He played a damn good role because everything he said to me I believed. He made it seem like he genuinely cared for me, but he really didn't. He was just trying to hurt me in the end.

I shouldn't have trusted Tremaine. I shouldn't have given him a chance. I shouldn't have talked to him that day at the bowling alley. I shouldn't have allowed him to take me out to lunch that day. I shouldn't have given him my number. I shouldn't have fucking met him. I wish I've never met. I would've been good without him.

I wiped the tears off the sides of my face, feeling my phone ringing beside me. I picked it up to see it was Trey calling once again. I ignored it, dropping it right back down on the bed. He has been calling me since last night when I got in from the office and I've been ignoring him since last night. I don't want to hear what he has to say. I don't want to hear anymore of his lies. I don't want to hear from him ever again. I'll be good without him.

"M?"Mia called out from the other side of the door.

"Yes?" I answered after hearing a knock on my door.

"Are you okay, M? You've been quiet since we got in last night." Mia questioned, making her way into my room.

"Yeah, I'm good. I've just been thinking about work."I lied, sitting up in my bed.

"Oh, okay. Well, what are we going to do today?" She asked, taking a seat on my bed.

Today Mia didn't have school, so she will be with me. I honestly don't have a clue as to what we can do.

"I don't know. We might met up with DJ and Drew to do something. We haven't hung with them in a minute."I told her.

I've honestly miss my brothers. The four of us haven't hung out and did anything together in a while and I miss that.

"Well, I'll go call him and see what they're up to and ask him." Mia requested.

"Alright."

She made her way out my room and I sat up, stretching out my arms. I honestly am a bit tired. When I got in last night, I barely got sleep. I was thinking so much and putting two and two together, I couldn't go to sleep. At first I thought I was tripping over the whole situation and that Tanaya was lying, but once I think back on it, I'm not tripping and Tanaya isn't lying. Once I think about everything, everything adds up and makes sense. That's how I know he lied.